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So I'm 4 days off from updating. I really wanted to try and do it every day or at least every other day.
News:
Applied for unemployment yesterday. Turns out, I can collect unemployment for as long as they let you, and not have to look for employment because I'm a full time student! How frikin awesome is that. So now, I can calm the hell down and focus on when school starts and get a taste of how my semester will go and make judgement on a job that way. Well this is all considering I get approved for unemployment. When Cypress fired me, the manager who took me out to dinner did not come right out and say "you're fired," or give me solid reasons for why I was being fired. The actual only reason "I think Billy (owner) is just ready to cut ties with you at this point." I was looking for another job and wasn't exactly happy there, so I guess them firing me before I found another job was pretty much inevitable. Oh well. As far as I know about unemployment, so long as I didn't violate any policies I should be able to collect unemployment. Especially since I have no separation letter. And also since I had only been written up ONE time in 10 months. Never had a review. And I always went to my manager to ask about things I could work on and improve within myself. Verbal conversation only, nothing was ever written or documented about what I wasn't doing properly, etc etc.

Slowly but surely I'm gaining the courage to ask Keith what's going on with us and tell him some of the things that are bothering me. We met back in June, I think like the last weekend or something like that. So it's only been a month, but if this isn't going to go somewhere, I'd rather leave it at us just being friends. When did dating become this huge ordeal? Why can't it be like this:

Ya check one and move on from there. Easy as pie.
I'm still going on dates with other people, found out he has been as well, so who knows what's going on.

I let go of my first dream home because of the neighborhood it was in.....well not really a neighborhood...it was off a street that was majority, unfavorable.
BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT.
I found my new dream home as of today. It's a little out of my range. But that's ok, cash is key, and that's also what negotiations are for. Here Are some pictures from my tumblr. You can see the better ones there.


From tumblr:
"This probably has to be hands down my dream home.
Its a 3/2. Id use it as a 2/2 instead. The 3 bedrooms are all down the same side of the house, so theyre all next to one another. I would use the middle (smaller) bedroom as an office with possibly a futon or nice pull-out. Then there would be a buffer between each bedroom if I went with a roommate. Downside, the second bathroom is nearly right across the hall from the master. Kinda goofy set up but both bathrooms are BEAUTIFUL. So thats ok
I would probably change up the paint a little bit. The entire house is done in a sea foam green color. While I LOVE that color. I dont know that I want it through my entire house. But its not obnoxious by any means. I think Id rather use a really light taupe color. I really want to do the kitchen a really really super pale yellow color to brighten it up even more. I would keep the master the green color. Leave the 2nd bedroom alone since I might have a roommate. And the office/guest I would do a light taupe color with bright art and stuff to make it a happy place for studying and doing work and stuff.
And then Id update the landscaping a bit. Try to put in two ceiling fans on the porch, cover part of the deck and if possible put a ceiling fan there, and add some curtains to the front porch and the covered portion of the deck."
As you can tell....it doesn't take me very long to see my future plans in a home.
We also looked in this neighborhood called The Preserve. Really nice, very large craftsman style houses. Like HUGE, possibly too big for me. But it's a neighborhood alone, all the houses are similar, it's a builders neighborhood. Gonna try and get an appointment next week to look at the 3 that are for sale, but they also build for you starting at $199k. Here's a picture of two of the houses for sale:


Very large homes. And those two don't really have backyards.
I sent my grandfather the dream home in his email and also told him the name of the neighborhood.

I have a date tonight. We're going to Raging Burrito in Decatur. It's funny, because I just had an interview there the other day hahahaha. Downside....it's gonna fuck up my planned cheat day. And since looking at houses took a lot longer, I wasn't able to get a full workout in. Just did 15 minutes of yoga and walked the dogs. Not even far though because we got caught in a storm. Fucking weather. I guess if all else fails and I'm bored and wired when I get home, I can mosey down to the gym and workout late night. There are some healthy options at Raging, but damn, being at a Mexican place....and not eating my favorites. That's gonna be hard. I still have my 49 weekly points though, so I guess I can use this as a cheat day and go into those a little.

I'm 40lbs from my goal. I gained weight. I'm at 170 now.
I really need to get my shit together. My grandfather has really been hounding me about coming to visit, I won't be able to until September....so that gives me maybe a month and a half to lose some weight.
I'm hoping for 15lbs gone by then. 10lbs by the time my shoot with _Peep_ comes around on Labor Day weekend.
I asked Blyde to send me her workout routine, she lost 50lbs in like 3 months! That's phenomenal.
Really I think what's been playing against me is that I've gotten back into the habit where I'm not eating breakfast anymore, and I'm skipping meals and eating later in the day. VERY NOT GOOD.
So I planned out my meals.
Breakfast:
Weight Control Oatmeal with a side of strawberries.
Eggs with tomatoes on flax or rye toast. Might even add some avocado.
Kashi cereal with skim milk and strawberries.
(I got 2lbs of strawberries for $2 at the farmer's market the other day)
Lunch:
Clean Reuben.
Turkey Sausage with Spinach.
Grilled Veggie Sandwich on flax or rye.
Chicken, beet, avocado salad.
Beet and avocado salad with shrimp.
Dinner:
This meal plan is going to range all over the place, but it's always going to be a clean meal.
Chicken, steak, seafood, fish, turkey, turkey sausage, lots of veggies.
And always a salad before the meal.
Protein and fiber is the name of the game.
Snacks:
Trail mix.
Fruit.
Nuts.

According to a calorie count website, I should be eating like 1,400 calories per day with moderate activity.
Well I'm going to take that down to 1,200 until I really get to the "moderate activity" level of things. I'm still getting over my loathing of the gym haha. So if I can get over that and just get my ass in there, things would be a lot different. I'm sure I'd be a lot further along than I am by now. But one of the nice things is that I don't have work right now, and won't need to stress about getting a job right now, and that can help me dedicate more time to getting all of this in order.
By the way...if anyone wants me to put the points of each of the meals I make and the ingredients, please let me know and I'll start posting those on here and on tumblr.

Well...that's all I really have to report right now.