Hello to you. citizens of SG land.
I've been having a hard couple of " seems to be eternal " days. I just got out of the hospital. I spent the morning there looking after my " brother in law ". Actually he's my brother's girlfriend's brother, but we've been friends for about 4 years now... Anyway he had major surgery on friday night ( about 2 am saturday morning) in his intestin.. so know he's going to be in the hospital until friday and shit and then he's homebound for a month... That means he can kiss goobye his college year. He wont be able to catch up... So we're both feeling like shit. I got raped from myself and he got raped from a year of his life. But I havent told him what happened yet.. How could I ? He's already feeling low like hell. And I think the girl he likes is such and hypocritical bitch.. god I hate her. Anyways..
I'm fucking late in my school work.. I'll have to catch up tommorow at noon. Oh well my nerdyness should come in handy this time...
I have this song in my head since I woke up this morning... " Only you " by Tesla... It makes me think of JohnRitchie, my sweety. God I love him so much...
October cant come too fast !
In a world far from perfect
It's not always easy to connect
Where everything can be so complicated
I know that "simply, you're the best"
I don't want nobody else, I only want you
Wanna keep you for myself, it's selfish, but true
I don't want anything, to ever come between us
'Cause I don't want nobody else
In a world far from perfect...still
One never knows what to expect, so tell me
what will I do?
So hard to think of you as "dearly departed"
If only desperation could resurrect
'Cause I don't want nobody else, I only want you
Not some picture on a shelf, no...'cause that
won't carry me through
How does debilitated, find the strength to
make it through
'Cause I don't want nobody else, only you
Now I don't want nobody else, I only want you
And not some picture on a shelf, on no...
'Cause that won't carry me through
How does asphyxiated, ever find the breath to
make it through
'Cause I don't want nobody else,
I don't want nobody else,
only you, only you...
Oh btw sweetie, i've started a second portrait of you ! And dont worry, you are so cute you look good in every medium !
So wish me luck all, I'm feeling so low, so crappy, so .. nothing and empty...
I'm starting my quest for Sg army points to get myself and Sg dickies jacket. So if anyone wants to contribute... you're more than welcome since my camera just died ...
hugs to all
I've been having a hard couple of " seems to be eternal " days. I just got out of the hospital. I spent the morning there looking after my " brother in law ". Actually he's my brother's girlfriend's brother, but we've been friends for about 4 years now... Anyway he had major surgery on friday night ( about 2 am saturday morning) in his intestin.. so know he's going to be in the hospital until friday and shit and then he's homebound for a month... That means he can kiss goobye his college year. He wont be able to catch up... So we're both feeling like shit. I got raped from myself and he got raped from a year of his life. But I havent told him what happened yet.. How could I ? He's already feeling low like hell. And I think the girl he likes is such and hypocritical bitch.. god I hate her. Anyways..
I'm fucking late in my school work.. I'll have to catch up tommorow at noon. Oh well my nerdyness should come in handy this time...
I have this song in my head since I woke up this morning... " Only you " by Tesla... It makes me think of JohnRitchie, my sweety. God I love him so much...
October cant come too fast !
In a world far from perfect
It's not always easy to connect
Where everything can be so complicated
I know that "simply, you're the best"
I don't want nobody else, I only want you
Wanna keep you for myself, it's selfish, but true
I don't want anything, to ever come between us
'Cause I don't want nobody else
In a world far from perfect...still
One never knows what to expect, so tell me
what will I do?
So hard to think of you as "dearly departed"
If only desperation could resurrect
'Cause I don't want nobody else, I only want you
Not some picture on a shelf, no...'cause that
won't carry me through
How does debilitated, find the strength to
make it through
'Cause I don't want nobody else, only you
Now I don't want nobody else, I only want you
And not some picture on a shelf, on no...
'Cause that won't carry me through
How does asphyxiated, ever find the breath to
make it through
'Cause I don't want nobody else,
I don't want nobody else,
only you, only you...
Oh btw sweetie, i've started a second portrait of you ! And dont worry, you are so cute you look good in every medium !
So wish me luck all, I'm feeling so low, so crappy, so .. nothing and empty...
I'm starting my quest for Sg army points to get myself and Sg dickies jacket. So if anyone wants to contribute... you're more than welcome since my camera just died ...
hugs to all
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To me you are the kind girl who was there wen I was down over my cat and that meant a great deal to me. it restored my faith in mankind all be it in a small degree.
You said that no-one really seemed to get your vision of life and im sure that each and every one of us feels like that at times. My own vision ive tried to share only to get some very different reactions. I once wrote my Mother a love poem, saying how much that I'd taken her for granted and that now I was mature enough to realise that her love was pure etc.
She took it as a suicide note and became seriously ill.
Just shows that we all see things differently and maybee theres a part of us that deep down, if were honest with ourselves we actually like. I mean really if I found a TRUE soul mate someone who understood me COMPLETELY, well I reckon our conversations would ultimatly be a tad boring.
vive la difference !
On a lighter note hope those kittens are doing well, my new cat is adorable, not quite my Marley but adorable all the same.
Blessed be,
J D