I kinda realized my gymming has become an addiction when I spent 30 dollars I did not have on tension bands to do a workout....
So... I'm that fat kid.
Growing up I was like 5' tall in middle school.... 6'3" is where i stopped growing.
Anyway... I was that fat kid.
I once ate a teacher's cupcake cause it was left out on the "sharing bench." Shame moment? Oh yeah.
I was not chosen last for sports....
I never showed up to BE chosen last.
That being said!
I find myself... enraptured with the slow breaking and reforming of this mortal shell.
I don't do a yang workout. I'm not lifting 2000billion lbs with my testacles.
I don't lift more than about 15-20lbs, and to lift that much is RARE.
I have been doing isolation decay and tension.
My workouts.... I take a five pound weight, and I pose...
and I pose
and it hurts
and i pose
and it starts to tear at the fiber of my soul
and i slowly release the pose
Then I grab a tension band, and I try to work some life into my dead shoulder.
Few hours later....
I might do some more weights here and there between stretching, grabbing drinks (hydration so important), and huffing LEGAL but recreational cannaboids.
I... I cant express how GOOD going to the gym makes me feel these days
How... How I avoided anything physical for so long.
I found a old shirt the other day....
Im a M-L these days
The over shirt I found was 3XL, and i could wrap it around my torso like... twice....
I dont wanna gain much muscle.
I dont wanna put on weight.
I wanna DROP more, and TONE up....
I wanna be SKININY for once.
THEN.
THEN.
THEN.
I might add some muscle.
balance the yin with some yang.
but you know what?
yin... yin is pretty dope.
P.s. One way to get funny looks in the Gym or Public Park seems to be to make super slow but vaguely threating gestures in empty air.... Go Tai Chi for making me into even more of a weirdo in public. :D