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Dear Stev...

i hate the feelings you have... i hate that you never do anything about the feelings you have that you hate... fucking do something... i don't know where you should begin... i don't know why it matters... your life is not linear... everything is full circle... and i hate that you think that... are you crying yet, you fucking bitch... being alone shouldn't be this hard... what is wrong with you... where have you gone wrong... hunh? nowhere... you are not special... many people are lonely... why should anyone care about you... what do you do for people... anything? is there a life you have affected recently... a drastic change you have made somewhere? what scar have you left? nothing... not a goddamn thing... you can't leave.. not yet...

love,
stev

p.s. i hate that you just lied