unbornbloom

Mmm. Valentines day porn rocks my socks.
So, tonight, I'm thinking, lets breech tradition. Fuck being a good girl. Ive been moderate and conserved with my heart all my life...always uber catious and careful...Just recently I tried the whole letting my walls down let it all go thing. Now, I'm going one step further. My previous motives for letting walls down, they need to be abandoned too, at least now and again.
I know they arent neccessarily bad aspects of myself...hell, they're half of what I love about me. But in my perfect world (its full of incosistent paradoxes...) I would be able to keep those priorities under selective practice.
A perfect balance of completely contrasting ways.
Tonight. Im seeing a boy. A boy from spain, with beautiful curly hair and an accent. And Im not going to give a shit about future, whatsoever, because, well, that would be ridiculous wouldnt it.
I want to be the kind of person who can still maintain my priorities while having a random fling with a hot professor or the kind of girl who goes abroad for a semester and has animalistic sex with italian strangers...

i want to be able to abandon all sense of what i would normally call self respect, under the precept, of loving myself so perfectly and completely.
I want to indulge fully in all form of passion. unbridled, uncommitted.

Ive known obligation, commitment, devotion, all my life.
Its time for something new. A transformation. A leap into divine unpredictability.

im having an awesome day....
more than i thought i would, Im more optimistive than I've been in months...

tonight, it will be even better then today.

out.