umbra

Singapore is an amazing city. All my travels do is leave a desire to keep looking for something. I am not sure what. I feel satisfied but restless. Its hard to explain. I feel like I want more but I dont know what more is... Its odd.

I am doing well I continue to get raises and promotions despite my inability to do anything the "correct" way. I can only thank my parents for giving me the natural ability to succeed where I my laziness and undisciplined self would have failed. I have so much to be thankful for from job oppertunities, my retirement already handled, my health, respect of my peers. I think I should be happy. But I still need something.

I am not sure. The most important thing in my life is rollacoaster of a wife. She is the best thing that has happened to me and at times she can be the most hurtful thing in my life. I have questioned our relationship many times, but everytime I do I find I love her more. The valleys make the highs seem all the more worth it. I feel our relationship is how it should be. We do not agree but do our best for each other to make the other one happy. She sacrifices alot and so do I. I love her and cant wait to hold her and see her again. Anyway I think this is my first real journal entry.

Well its off to call her and do some more soul searching.

Love
Rick James