uglydante

Well its kind of late and I should be in bed kung fuing the hell out of this crap that I have, Yeah and maybe if I truly wish hard enough I can also get a ton of money, friends that are real, a girlfriend that isn't psycho for once, and a job that I could truly say I enjoy going to everyday........I for one believe in alot of things, a couple of those things are reincarnation, and other realities other than the one we live in now. My point is that of all the realities I could have ended up in, why this one? A world of malice and judgement towards one another, and yes I am just as guilty of judging others as the next person, But I never once have done so until after I've at least heard their story. Im not perfect in any way, but I for one do not know why I ended up in this reality, this time, this universe....I will admit, some things have been the best moments anybody could have had in their life, but what alot of heartache, and toil for me to get to the next moment. Am I just a whiny bitch holding my life in regret? Or is something I'm saying true? Even a small part? I will not let this world, this reality or others beat me, My karma is my karma, and I know Im here for a reason, Upon the circumstances of my birth sometimes I feel I shouldn't have been born, its just too weird why I was, But then I just take it as being a big accident, not destiny, I won't know till I meet my demise, but until then Im here, and I will live for me and no one else....I feel like a wondering ronin with no cause but to live for a tomorrow that will never come for I am already dead.