well what are we going to do ...its worth not a thought to think of such things that co exist between one or more friendships, hurting doesn't only make it worthwhile. hurting isn't worthwhile....hate is not worthwhile....only being one with yourself can you begin to know what hate is, am I capable of drawing first blood, am I going to kill someday what will I be who will I want to be after that its sad that I can't see why , it pains everybody so, what do they all want from me....help is not on the way, your stranded...alone with all the means in the world to get out but the engine wont start, and you don't know just dont know...it beats me and beats me and I can't help but give in....will it be fun when I let it all go...I can't wait....I want to understand what I can't feel , say, touch, hurt, love, can you understand what I ask....maybe just once can it all just work out to be as good as you've always dreamed maybe theres only nightmares awaiting the next sunset....its always darkest before dawn you know, well what ever happens happens.....ok first of all This is not just crazy talk....I just wanted to see what would happen if I watched tv and pay attention and then just type, nothing in particular, just type....can any psycho, or psychology major tell me what I just said and whats going through my head? it would be appreciated..... 