uemantra

I am having such a maelstrom of emotion right now it is actually kind of ridiculous.

I fell for this girl I have had a little crush on for a long time. I guess I just built this up in my head a lot, we talked a lot while she was away for college about life and our futures, we even had talk about a future together.

It all just sounded so good to me, if there was one person I could picture myself with it is her. I think everything about her is perfect. She has only been back in town for about two weeks now. We have hung out once or twice, I am shy though and haven't really made my intentions clear I suppose.

I feel like I missed my chance already though, she had an interview for a job in florida. She finds out monday if she got the job or not and if she did she will be leaving to move there permanently.

The girl of my dreams may only be in town for a couple more days, what am I supposed to do. I can't follow her down there right away if she goes, and I don't think I have made a big enough impact on her to ask her if she could wait for me before finding someone new.

I really want to wow her, show her how good of a man I can be for her. I just don't know how, I am so lost with this right now. I need answers, I don't want to let her just walk out of my life, but I feel like it is inevitable.

I just want this hope for something better to last just a bit longer.