twasbrillig

So, I'm changing my fucking major again. For a while I was majoring in communications and decided to change it because I felt like I wasn't being "challenged" enough. I felt like shit paying for a class and watching All in the Family and The Simpsons all the time. I didn't know what to change my major to because I have a complete lack of confidence in my abilities. I decided to go with psychology from the advice of my aunt. So this last semester I took 3 psychology classes and decided that psychology is almost as much bullshit as sitting in a class watching TV shows.

For a second I considered majoring in Biology because I'm interested in it, it's challenging and I've had 3 biology professors pull me aside and tell me I had some innate ability to understand it. But seeing as how I think so little of myself, I'm convinced that they are just recruiting whoever they can because the more students there are in biology classes, the more funding the department gets. Also, I'm scared that I'll have trouble with the calculus and physics requirements. And if I do have trouble with those classes, I might have to change my major yet again.

I just want to get the fuck out of school to get my parents off my back. I'm the youngest child in my family and no one in my family, including my parents, has graduated from college. I just don't want to let them down. I guess it's back to paying to have deep conversations about the relevence of Roseanne.