Tuesday Feb 14, 2006

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Make up your mind soon, you stupid git!! . Moron. Imbecile. I could
just shake
you! Maybe I should whack you on the head with a frying pan to un-addle
your
obviously addled wits. Fool. Ass.Oh David, David, David. What AM I to
do? I saw
you yesterday and i was incredibly happy. When I kissed you I could
feel it all
over me and through me. Like the first time. Everytime. I miss you very
much
Come and kiss me David. It's good for your mental health.
L

In honor of Valentines Day...Thats the last e-mail that I got from my girlfriend yesterday. she's not too happy with me, as you can see. I have SERIOUS problems with commitment and I've broken everything off (for a second time) even though now (after the second time) I'm not sure what I did was the right thing. I've JUST realized that there are patterns in my life and influences that I didn't know were there that are bubbling up and effecting what I do. running away from relationships when they get too serious has become a pattern. I'm stuck, though. I have no idea what to do. I feel like the biggest jerk in the world because I'm causing her pain over and over again. The thing is, if I said that I wanted to be with her and told her so and went back to her... I wouldn't trust myself to follow through and stay around for all that long. I can except all my friends and family without trying to change them and I accept all their faults along with their virtues and I love them but If i'm in a relationship, I always find a reason to make an exit. I don't know. what do you do when you don't even trust yourself? it's a weird weird feeling...This is all a new realization and I'm just not quite sure how to deal with it...

P.S. what the hell is a "git"?
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nobodaddy:
That's so cool that she says "git". It's a Britishism, I think a variation of "get". In the senses that your Dad "begot" you on your Mom so you're a "get" or a git. But it's a contemptuous term, remember "I'm So Tired" by the Beatles.

"And curse Sir Walter Raleigh he was such a stupid get"

Here's the tfd.com entry:

git Pronunciation (gt)
Noun 1. git - a person who is deemed to be despicable or contemptible; "only a rotter would do that"; "kill the rat"; "throw the bum out"; "you cowardly little pukes!"; "the British call a contemptible person a `git'"
phenomenater:
thats like the best letter ive ever read

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