tunnel_vision

Do you want to hear something fucked up? My dad has cancer and may not survive the chemo ... today my sister told him she can't take it and does not want to see or talk to him anymore. Then to top it all off she admitted to knowing my ex was cheating on me and chose to not tell me.

I have not consumed any alchohol since I started dialysis just after laborday weekend 2006 ... tonight I sat at my basement bar for a few minutes and contemplated having a drink. Who knows, I may give in and have a martini for newyears eve. Of course I have major transplant bloodwork scheduled for Jan 2nd and my doctors, nurse, and nutritionist will rag on me for days when they see I was drinking.