ttye0

A simple pattern, but so hard to make sense of. Up, and always back down again. Each is worst than the last. I can not hold on much more. Now my mouth only moves to whimper her name. My eyes only open to see her blinding beauty. When this love of yours runs short, I told you, I will always be for you. End the...
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Witnessing a baby, violently shaking to end with a sudden, last, tense movement. The body gives in and drowns. Mother and father were never there. Anyone but them could hear the it, splashing and panting. Waking up with a loud scream of disappointment. Crying so hard. Never the pleasure to become that child. So pure and ignorant of love.

I dreamed of this child the...
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Today I'm sad.

Each day begins to get worse than the last again. Memories of your warm breath hitting the cold. An airborne comfort. Let it flow across my neck as you lay your head deep. Let the footsteps up the stairs creep all night. Simply oblivious to anything else existing but us.

Never to forget the floor like ice on my 2 layers of...
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[SGB Experience - Orlando]
I thought I'd tell everyone about my night in Orlando at the SGB show. I was initally supposed to be going alone, then with like 5 different people. I ended up going alone...what a surprise. I leave from school at about 6 PM and end up in line at the Backbooth at about 8:30. The doors were supposed to open at...
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I was doing well today but I had a blanket of negetivity thrown on me in the end. I decided to write a song. (By the way, I didn't write the song in my last journal entry. Someone misunderstood that fact) So if you want to read the lyrics they are below.

ttye0 - Reading Between The Lines

i got a little note
from you...
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A few days ago my friend had a graduation get together. I joined in on this of course. We got there and partied awhile...turns out someone brought boxing gloves. A whole bunch of people boxed and eventually I decided I wanted to also (for the first time ever). I boxed a bud of mine for about 2 hours. After that, we left with a couple...
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I got somewhat depressed again today. Thought I would share this song with everyone. Give me you thought from this song sometime, especially if you've heard it.

Yellowcard - Empty Apartment

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no...
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I've seem to capture primarily the bad thoughts in recent days. If it wasn't for the supportive people that I've found here I don't know what my condition would be right now. I just want to say thank you to everyone that's there for me.

I'm ready and willing to do another photo set but I lack particular things that are a must, such as...
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It's amazing how one day I do nothing but sit around and whine all day to myself in my head and another day I'll be the most productive person I've been in awhile.

I laid around the house till around 2 PM waitin for someone specific that was supposed to call to hang out. They never did. A little after I was supposed to go...
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I got a new piercing today. I spoke to the piercer about it for like a hour about ways I could reduce the chances of rejection. I got a surface piercing. From what I've been told they usually reject, like about 80% of the time. I got a special shaped bar, short, and because of my build and where I got it...I might be able...
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I submitted a photo set today. It wasn't what I had planned though. Particularily with my hair. I didn't have the supplies I need and when I went to go get them and attempted to utilize them, it didn't work out. What a bummer, I looked forward to having my hair a particular way.

Fuck it, some other day.

Some people mentioned I was cute...
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Well I made a request to join the SGFL group and I havn't yet made a request to join the SGBoys group. Reason being my photos could be more flattering and I want to attain that level before I make that request.

I'm hoping my second submission of photos will be precisely what I want. Lots of white eye work, I believe that the black...
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