I'm loving my new camera, I'll be able to try it out properly for the first time tomorrow too. It's back to uni and I'll be going into town at lunch to try take some architectural shots with my sisters wide angle lense. A lens which is probably worth more than my last car! Hah, I'm kind of terrified of dropping it!
Feeling pretty apprehensive about tomorrow though, this is where it all went wrong last year. After the Christmas break, I can't completely explain it, but I felt like I physically couldn't go back in, like something awful would happen. I had a really anxious day yesterday too (the worst in a long time) the feeling of a panic so bad that you feel like it's crushing you, stopping you from doing anything. It's pretty horrid. I'm not going to bum myself out about it though as I've had a better day today. I need to just keep going, cause I know the worst thing to do is giving into the feeling, and listening to the negative, if I start doing that than I've already lost.
Although finishing on a plus, I opened up to a close friend about my anxieties the other day. I was really worried what she'd think, or if maybe she'd think badly of me for it, but she was so nice about it, I felt so stupid for thinking she would. I was really happy about that.
