i am dangling, caught in a web, unable to extricate myself but watching the spider inch toward me on its shiny black legs. not death stalking, but disappointment, disillusionment, loss of faith.
how can she say that she wants to be my friend and then disappear again? what excuse will she give me this time? because now i know she will return, but she will never stay. and it sparks a fire in me, sparks anger, because i would love her completely if she let me.
and at the same time, i feel this overwhelming compassion for everyone. antisocial little me, wanting to soothe everyone's wounds, wishing that i could give my loved ones that one thing which would inspire that rare light of true happiness. if i could only give them the right lens that would alter their perspective just enough to let the beauty of everything pour in...
what is the one thing you desire most?
how can she say that she wants to be my friend and then disappear again? what excuse will she give me this time? because now i know she will return, but she will never stay. and it sparks a fire in me, sparks anger, because i would love her completely if she let me.
and at the same time, i feel this overwhelming compassion for everyone. antisocial little me, wanting to soothe everyone's wounds, wishing that i could give my loved ones that one thing which would inspire that rare light of true happiness. if i could only give them the right lens that would alter their perspective just enough to let the beauty of everything pour in...
what is the one thing you desire most?
I updated my profile with all sorts of fun thorasic metal rod stuff for you. You probably never had any of the nerve damage stuff with your scoliosis. The surgury is bad enough but the nerve damage is where things really get exciting. Exciting in a not so fun kind of a way.
As for your girl troubles... Obviously I'm only a distant observer but I've found that there really are some women (probably men too, but that's not my bag baby) that are born to torture us. These femme fatals are usually really hot too. The very most damaging of these are the ones that don't even do it maliciously, they can be in love with you and mangle you at the same time. I've got an ex-girlfriend who's known (I wasn't even the one that gave her this name) as 'the destroyer'. Basically, if you think your woman may be one of these, take my advice and run.