tryptamine_____

for those of you who would like to see my fire pictures, please email me. i don't know how to post them or anything, and its going to be hard enough for me to figure out how to scale them down enough to fit in emails.

i am, indeed, sick. not pukey or anything, just really really tired. which sucks, cuz i forgot to pick up my pictures and now i'll have to walk all the way downtown and then back home again.

my roommate announced to me, quite suddenly, last night that he is moving to portland next summer. he has 3 reasons: 1-cute girls 2-his brother lives there and 3-he will have fewer distractions from his music making. still, he's the best roommate i've ever had, and fun as hell to party with, so i'll miss him. maybe i'll just have to go to portland more often.

had a very peculiar dream this morning. i was hanging out with my little brother and the sky grew dark with rainclouds. twisters --like little hurricanes-- starting appearing here and there. at first, they were far away, and two would come together to form a bigger one. they slowly got closer, though, and started coming together 4 at a time. i could feel the wind picking up and the ground shaking with the violence of the twisters, but i wasn't really concerned.
finally, i realized one was heading straight for us. pushing my little brother ahead of me, we ran into the house and, lucky for us, the door to the basement was just inside the front door. we hid there till the noise had subsided. i came out to investigate. everything was broken, flung, ruined, but yet beautiful somehow.
i walked into seattle (or at least, it was seattle in my dream) and stood on the pavement that led off the edge of a cliff that had never been there before. the ground was sliding slowly underneath my feet, so that i had to take a step back every couple of minutes so that i didn't fall off. i asked someone nearby "is this 15th?" and he said, "no, its 1st Avenue." but beyond the cliff, where there should have been only water, was a great city, completely undamaged.
i eventually decided to explore the new city that seattle had become and walked until i found a cafe. there was a large, beautiful pond out front with pleasantly green water. a girl jumped in and automatically turned into a giant, gorgeous fish, all green and blue scales with dark pink lips and fins. i wanted to be able to do that too, and swim underwater without worrying about breathing, so i jumped in, but nothing happened. someone else, who was rather androgynous, told me that it was easy, i just had to believe. s/he showed me by jumping in and automatically turning into a mermaid. so i jumped back in and sure enough, i could feel my legs bound together by a single fin. i would have thoroughly enjoyed myself, except that my brother was still back at the house and i didn't want him to be alone for too long.