tryptamine_____

i think i'm getting sick. its all this stressing about sweden. whenever i get too stressed out, my stomach starts to act funny, and it felt like i had eaten a handful of rocks today. i am determined not to give up, and not to get sick either, but it requires a lot of rest and relaxation when i'm not too busy with worry, planning, research, and all that.

my pics of me spinning fire for the first time should be available tomorrow. hopefully they will come out well. does anyone want to see 'em?



i'm getting all excited about thursday, planning what to wear like a dorky girly girl.

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while i'm waiting oh-so-(im)patiently for the drano to work its magic on my bathtub, i thought i'd post this:

"Nucleus I"
Yellow suns
Orbiting the control.
My hands
And eyes and soul
Filled with visions
Of light.
Of fire.

Evaporated my sins
And trespasses.
Absolve me
In this consummation.
Feed me on fire.

I twist the stars
Into beautiful shapes
To guard my heart.
Know no fear.
Can't feel that here,
In the nucleus.