tryptamine_____

i just spent the last 3 and a half hours searching the net for some sort of international job that doesn't require a college degree. seems like all i've gotten out of it is a pain in my back and a difficulty focusing my eyes on this teeny tiny print. on a good note, though, i've never ever researched anything that much in my life, and i plan to do more... perhaps i really do have a better attention span than a 2 year old with ADHD in a room full of toys.

last night was a little wierd. dave called and we met at a pub with a couple other people. he asked me at one point if i wanted to go see tool with him, but i thought he said jewel, and it was about 5 minutes before we realized that we had misunderstood each other. i thought it was hilarious, but he seemed almost insulted. when he left, he just announced, "i'm tired. i'm going home." and left. didn't even say goodbye.

i'm probably just overanalyzing tho, as i always do. i think i'm gonna go call him and see if he wants to hang out.

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yep. he was just tired. i'm such a psychopathic retard sometimes. i need to remind myself to calm down and take some deep breaths.... and i need a personal masseuse, to get all these relationship anxiety knots out.