truthwhore

i don't like this emo mood that comes on me now and then. at least i don't subject you all to it much.

usually talking through something lends objectivity to the issue--this has something i guess i've come to rely on. in this case however, it seems the result is only to undermine my own confidence and annoy my confidante.

in some ways i feel mature beyond my years. in others i feel like i haven't progressed since the age of six. i'm still a goofball with too much faith in my friends and not enough in myself. i think about things too much and always from the same angles.

i tend not to put myself out there and so don't have the evidence to remind myself that this is a good thing. on the other hand, the times i have put myself out there turned out to be misguided. patience. maybe this is what happens when i run low.

where does confidence come from? i'm sure it builds over time, but what is the cornerstone? how do we know we're not just deluding ourselves into action? and is this bad necessarly?

"Good judgment comes from experience, and often experience comes from bad judgment."
- Rita Mae Brown

"We choose our joys and sorrows long before we experience them."
- Kahlil Gibran

"A life spent in making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing."
- George Bernard Shaw

"Never eat more than you can lift."
- Miss Piggy