true_love

Not to complain but to explain.
Not to you but to me.
That I endeavour so often to expand my experience and sense of 'power'; read awareness of self. Alas my understanding of life best described by another that truly and actually LIVES how I endeavour to live such as ~
Also you have so many powers. You do not want to exert - that's a different point altogether - but just try. One word of prayer from you is very powerful than hundreds of prayers of these people. One asking is much more powerful than thousands of these askings. You have never tried that. Try that. You are extremely powerful. Whatever you desire works out

You are so very powerful in collective and also individually. Whatever you want you can have it. I am desireless because the Divine, the Divine power is working for Me everything. I don't have to desire. It knows. I don't desire anything but you have to desire. You have to pray. You have to ask. And the wider you become, your prayers will be wider, for a wider world, wider vision, not limited to your children, not limited to your family, not limited to one place but unlimited areas

So we become very conscious and alert about whatever is happening in the world, to put our attention there. We try to find out what's wrong with this and what's wrong with that. You are not just worried about a small little ashram but we are worried about the whole world, to find out what's wrong, what can we do, what can we desire, because if we have the power and if we can operate the Divine power then why not we work it out ourselves? We can.

So your attention can go to any place. It can go to Nicaragua, it can go to Israel, it can go to Saddam Hussein, to any place that you want to work it out. It moves. It's mobile. It's universal. Just start expanding your heart, your mind and your attention.

Shri Mataji, Shivaratri Puja, 1992

So see thats fine. But the 'problem' in my perception and inabilty to live this approach totally is most people think the aboves simplicity is too utopian. So in conversation I find I have to backtrack, backdown and 'lower' myself to their level for lack of better wordaging. Upon doing so so often I start to think as hopelessly as my environmental associates. Then I have to isolate myself. Then I'm considered up myself. Then I'm lonely and judged. Then ... The cycle I fear reappears.

This cycle is to be no longer. The many old cycles I perpetuate must cease. I must drown in them no more. Desperately gasping for air whn up there is the world to fly in.