The nice thing about being used to falling is that you get better at picking yourself up.
Bought a cheap plane ticket to Boston in October, and will rent a car....just going to throw my sleeping back and tent in a duffel(along with some thermal undies)and sleep where I can find a spot. I am going to indulge in serious fried clam and lobster roll goodness, however. I am also booked to spend 2 nights in a cabin in the White Mountains; it sounds like my daydreams....little cabin with a woodstove for heat, out in the woods off a dirt road.
I've not been east since school, I am so looking forward to this.
One of the things that I keep returning to is to live my life in the now and for myself. I do fairly well, over the past 5 or 6 years I haven't NOT done something just because I'd have to do it alone. I think it is starting to sink in that I don't believe I'll have another significant romantic relationship. Not that I don't want to, not that I'm so hung up on J that I couldn't move on with someone else. But I'm inept socially, very generous in body, and strong of opinion. Oh, and I have pretty high standards in terms of intelligence and broadmindedness. So, the math just doesn't add up in my favor. It does hurt, to be a lonely loner. But, there you go.
I do miss having someone just hold me.
Ok, I miss the sex, too.
At least I have my cat.
Bought a cheap plane ticket to Boston in October, and will rent a car....just going to throw my sleeping back and tent in a duffel(along with some thermal undies)and sleep where I can find a spot. I am going to indulge in serious fried clam and lobster roll goodness, however. I am also booked to spend 2 nights in a cabin in the White Mountains; it sounds like my daydreams....little cabin with a woodstove for heat, out in the woods off a dirt road.
I've not been east since school, I am so looking forward to this.
One of the things that I keep returning to is to live my life in the now and for myself. I do fairly well, over the past 5 or 6 years I haven't NOT done something just because I'd have to do it alone. I think it is starting to sink in that I don't believe I'll have another significant romantic relationship. Not that I don't want to, not that I'm so hung up on J that I couldn't move on with someone else. But I'm inept socially, very generous in body, and strong of opinion. Oh, and I have pretty high standards in terms of intelligence and broadmindedness. So, the math just doesn't add up in my favor. It does hurt, to be a lonely loner. But, there you go.
I do miss having someone just hold me.
Ok, I miss the sex, too.
At least I have my cat.
guitargeek:
Try not to fuck the cat.