trocar

The woman I've loved for the last decade revealed to me this morning she no longer shares the same feelings I have. Maybe I've known for a while and refused to admit it, or I'd just hoped everything would work itself out. Truth or reality or whatever that bitch concept of the mind calls herself now has dealt me a severe blow. Anything approaching ration thought has been consumed in a wildfire of raging emotions and reckless thoughts. I guess the most apparent feeling is fear, I'm scared of how the future will play out for meit's been so long since I've been alone that I wonder if I even know myself as such.

The reason that I'm posting this here is that I have no one else I can share it with. Don't misread me, I have several friends and interact with loads of peoplejust nobody with a depth of friendship I would feel comfortable expressing my self to.

I have no bearing, no guide, no anything