ok ok I feel all scattered and stressed. Its rainy and weird out which feels fitting for today....
Yesterday, we had been low on the chronic for a while getting just a bit here and there so I took it upon myself to ask around and last night after the kids went down all kinds of calls came in and three different people got a bunch for me. I felt bad so I didn't wanna stiff anyone so I bought it all. I spent last night running around like crazy picking it all up (my license is expired so thats no good) and now I got three huge sacks of different strains in my freezer, which makes me anxious....
Yesterday I walked the kids all the way to the barbershop to get Des a school haircut, then later I walked them to library and the park as my sitter is still off doing whatever and it was too fucking much for me in one day on top of making four meals, cleaning two in diapers and being overly clean...I do too much.
Today we have to meet with Desmonds teacher for first time and then he will start school for first time next week for j/k. I am nervous to meet her and visit a school full of kids and am a little stressed how she will perceive us as people and parents and how kids will react to Karl and I and wondering of any of this will adversly affect his care or his friendships? My first kid in school and I am nervous about it... what if he needs me? What if he can't get his zipper up? what if she treats him weird because we are weird? FUCK!
I agreed without thinking much to visiting my brother on saturday even though I have some back to school shopping and groceries to get that day...He lives two hours away in country so we signed up for 4 hours of driving EWWW, but the kids love him, and I miss him too and his hick town is having a 150th anniversary of bumkinness and a tractor pull , which my kids love. So I set aside my chores to do so, and now am wondering how I will get it all done...
Sunday Karl is having an open house for his shop in which customers will come and see the work they did this year and some car clubs and a cruise thingy will be there too...so I can't get shit done that day either as he will have car and I can't drive with them in car anyway as it is illegal (hahah) so it a lost day almost...
Then monday might be his first day at school EEEEK, and I have to have them all ready at 8 AM to walk around the hood until I find the damn bus with all of them to send him off and then cry all the way home....
and then that night I have a community meeting for the group I am in the help the nieghbourhood kids have after school programs at the park across the street and convince their crackhead moms to let them join...
I am stressed , over extended, nervous and I started my period this morning too....
Can any of you come here and help me? hahah I wish I had more help..........
Yesterday, we had been low on the chronic for a while getting just a bit here and there so I took it upon myself to ask around and last night after the kids went down all kinds of calls came in and three different people got a bunch for me. I felt bad so I didn't wanna stiff anyone so I bought it all. I spent last night running around like crazy picking it all up (my license is expired so thats no good) and now I got three huge sacks of different strains in my freezer, which makes me anxious....
Yesterday I walked the kids all the way to the barbershop to get Des a school haircut, then later I walked them to library and the park as my sitter is still off doing whatever and it was too fucking much for me in one day on top of making four meals, cleaning two in diapers and being overly clean...I do too much.
Today we have to meet with Desmonds teacher for first time and then he will start school for first time next week for j/k. I am nervous to meet her and visit a school full of kids and am a little stressed how she will perceive us as people and parents and how kids will react to Karl and I and wondering of any of this will adversly affect his care or his friendships? My first kid in school and I am nervous about it... what if he needs me? What if he can't get his zipper up? what if she treats him weird because we are weird? FUCK!
I agreed without thinking much to visiting my brother on saturday even though I have some back to school shopping and groceries to get that day...He lives two hours away in country so we signed up for 4 hours of driving EWWW, but the kids love him, and I miss him too and his hick town is having a 150th anniversary of bumkinness and a tractor pull , which my kids love. So I set aside my chores to do so, and now am wondering how I will get it all done...
Sunday Karl is having an open house for his shop in which customers will come and see the work they did this year and some car clubs and a cruise thingy will be there too...so I can't get shit done that day either as he will have car and I can't drive with them in car anyway as it is illegal (hahah) so it a lost day almost...
Then monday might be his first day at school EEEEK, and I have to have them all ready at 8 AM to walk around the hood until I find the damn bus with all of them to send him off and then cry all the way home....
and then that night I have a community meeting for the group I am in the help the nieghbourhood kids have after school programs at the park across the street and convince their crackhead moms to let them join...
I am stressed , over extended, nervous and I started my period this morning too....
Can any of you come here and help me? hahah I wish I had more help..........
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My little guy isn't old enough for school yet, but I can imagine I would feel EXACTLY like you're feeling!
I think NextTuesday is right. If you're excited for him, some of that can't help, but rub off onto him. You know, my mom is a teacher, and she deals with parents all the time...ones she likes, doesn't like etc, but that NEVER has a bearing on how she treats their children. I imagine any GOOD teacher would be the same way. I'm sure as soon as she gets to know you and your son, tattoos and piercings won't matter. It's about personality and how you are with your son, which sounds absolutely amazing.
Don't worry about the housework. Have fun!!!! It sounds like you deserve it. That stuff will always be there, and need done, so you might as well enjoy yourself when you have the chance.