What a difference a day makes. Yesterday I just woke up mad and sad and it kept going all day, I felt so .... 
Karl fell asleep on the couch about 15 minutes after the kids went to bed (poor guy has been getting up at 4 AM for extra hours...)instead of sneaking off to chat I figured I had nothing to say anyway and so I stayed and just rubbed his back while he slept, I didn't have any extra weed to smoke anyway and assumed I wasn't missing much on chat so I woke him up and suggested early bed for us. I NEVER like to hit the hay before 11 or 12 no matter how tired I am because it makes me feel old but I went up anyway at about 9.
It was the best idea ever! (although Oscar snuck into our bed around 2 ish sans pants and trainers and I didn't notice and then about 3 AM karl yelled that he had peed the bed hahahahhah his side lol) so after bed switching and choas I fell back asleep.... I was sooooo rested that I woke up BEFORE the kids which was new and nice.. I looked down and my two boys were snuggled in each arm pit as I lay on my back and they looked so cute and comfy... it was a great way to start the day.. I could hear babygirl babbling happily in her crib... All was right in my world.
So there it is, motherhood...one day I am ripping out my hair and actually got caught crying in the bathroom when my husband surprised me by coming home early... and then you wake up the next day just feeling so much love and getting it, just how blessed I am to be able to do this job and do it well for them and for me... I am able to give them all the things I never had growing up, like cuddles, love, compassion and fun times..
Karl fell asleep on the couch about 15 minutes after the kids went to bed (poor guy has been getting up at 4 AM for extra hours...)instead of sneaking off to chat I figured I had nothing to say anyway and so I stayed and just rubbed his back while he slept, I didn't have any extra weed to smoke anyway and assumed I wasn't missing much on chat so I woke him up and suggested early bed for us. I NEVER like to hit the hay before 11 or 12 no matter how tired I am because it makes me feel old but I went up anyway at about 9.
It was the best idea ever! (although Oscar snuck into our bed around 2 ish sans pants and trainers and I didn't notice and then about 3 AM karl yelled that he had peed the bed hahahahhah his side lol) so after bed switching and choas I fell back asleep.... I was sooooo rested that I woke up BEFORE the kids which was new and nice.. I looked down and my two boys were snuggled in each arm pit as I lay on my back and they looked so cute and comfy... it was a great way to start the day.. I could hear babygirl babbling happily in her crib... All was right in my world.
So there it is, motherhood...one day I am ripping out my hair and actually got caught crying in the bathroom when my husband surprised me by coming home early...
and then you wake up the next day just feeling so much love and getting it, just how blessed I am to be able to do this job and do it well for them and for me... I am able to give them all the things I never had growing up, like cuddles, love, compassion and fun times..VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
and you know, if i was independantly wealthy i would sooooo have come and rescued you mama. i wish. your little ones always bring a smile to my face, as do you.
feel free to girl gossip my ass off anytime lady. anytime.
love, chels.