trixxx

ok I haven't kept up with trying to blog every day because it would bore the shit out of you guys, and I read all of yours and all that angst and stuff is so interesting.

Karl has been working like mad lately , 5 to 5 daily, which means he is not here and when he is , he is sleepy and not really present, also my babysitter has quit as of last week for a month or two...

So I have been full on crazy mom lately, with the three babies from 7 AM to 8 PM daily , all me all the time. poor kids lol, We do shit all day, 4 meals, art time, nap time, park time so on, its dull to write about and sometimes even duller to live.

I LOVE being a mom but doing it 13 hours a day , every day ....mostly alone is daunting, thrilling, exciting, dull, frustrating, glorious, thankless, and tiring ...alll at once...

I still feel like I ahven't recovered from friday night as I only got 3 or so hours sleep that night and haven't really recouped it since. Even when my sitter used to take two of them for a couple of hours a week, then I felt like I had at least some time to myself for a spell to revamp, recoup, reenergize......

I used to work three jobs at a time before kids, I am not lazy but then there were other people to talk to, get energy from, .....

I definately need some kind of outlet.......I draw and write a bit now and again but not daily as I used to.... I need something thats for sure and it sure the fuck ISN"T more chores or laundry....

I need a damn hug....I go hug them brats now, laters y'all