Life as I know it now, is kinda difficult at times. It is hard to negotiate a path ... its hard to make decisions when so much is riding on every one. We chose to scale down our life (my hubby and I ) when we started to have kids. He left a job that paid him 30 grand a year plus benefits and such and traded down to a job he likes closer here in the city that is alot more family friendly (hours flexible and less stress) and he really likes it. I traded working two jobs and all that entails to stay home for the kids until they all go to school. Therefore we essenitally went from having 60 grand more a year and no responsibilities to owning house, ($ pit) and having three kids... I enjoyed the challenge and went to task managing our new buget. We make it. We gave up almost everything that didn't really matter. We are happy, we pay our bills, we eat well......
The hardest part is staying the course. It seems all around us , people we love appear to be doing so well, and that makes us happy too. but it does make you hold up a mirror and wonder if our choices are good ones. I wanted the kids to know that they were first for us and our time with them more important than material possesions. I wanted to teach them that sucess of a man is the state of his family not his car/house/goodies...
It seems every couple of days someone calls with job offers , some more money , usually with a tradeoff of us moving or him working shift which when you are alone with three kids under 4 the thought of him being gone ALL the time is daunting..and I don't wanna fucking move , we just bought this house a year ago, its beside a park, we chose a school....oh fuck I am ranting here and not even coherently...
The kids need spring clothes and I threw out our old stroller and need a new one...We are happy mostly with our choices but the no extra money part is stressful and oppressive..
Karl turned down and hydro job and our parentals are freaking this morning..they think we are crazy. I am starting to wonder if this is true...he loves building racecars..he has been in magazines and set records at Targa and the Salt Flats...unfortunately ..the people that he builds for are rich and keep getting richer and we are struggling...
ON A HAPPY NOTE..... Let there be light. I was all yucky yesterday and then the LOVELY TOKI sent me a postcard!!!!! It made me laugh, it made me feel loved, it made me feel special..it probably took her 5 minutes to do and totally made my day/night. Thank you toki for remembering me. I have sent packages to people I have met here before of trinkets and bits and bobs and mentioned that I have never received mail back , just bills daily and Toki remembered me..
The hardest part is staying the course. It seems all around us , people we love appear to be doing so well, and that makes us happy too. but it does make you hold up a mirror and wonder if our choices are good ones. I wanted the kids to know that they were first for us and our time with them more important than material possesions. I wanted to teach them that sucess of a man is the state of his family not his car/house/goodies...
It seems every couple of days someone calls with job offers , some more money , usually with a tradeoff of us moving or him working shift which when you are alone with three kids under 4 the thought of him being gone ALL the time is daunting..and I don't wanna fucking move , we just bought this house a year ago, its beside a park, we chose a school....oh fuck I am ranting here and not even coherently...
The kids need spring clothes and I threw out our old stroller and need a new one...We are happy mostly with our choices but the no extra money part is stressful and oppressive..
Karl turned down and hydro job and our parentals are freaking this morning..they think we are crazy. I am starting to wonder if this is true...he loves building racecars..he has been in magazines and set records at Targa and the Salt Flats...unfortunately ..the people that he builds for are rich and keep getting richer and we are struggling...
ON A HAPPY NOTE..... Let there be light. I was all yucky yesterday and then the LOVELY TOKI sent me a postcard!!!!! It made me laugh, it made me feel loved, it made me feel special..it probably took her 5 minutes to do and totally made my day/night. Thank you toki for remembering me. I have sent packages to people I have met here before of trinkets and bits and bobs and mentioned that I have never received mail back , just bills daily and Toki remembered me..
For what it's worth, I think you do a spectacular job!
xoxo