trixxx

co sleeping sounds like such a good idea when you have one baby. After 4 years of it, I am tired and pissed off. Karl has taken to sleeping in the basement. I have been up since 2 AM, nursed the babe, then got des back to sleep, then Ozzy coughed, then I had to nurse again, then Des had to pee which made Ozzy get up..and then I had to nurse again..I wish I could escape to basement to sleep but alas I am the mom and we don't get breaks.
I haven't bought clothes or had a haircut in years now. Once in a while Karl will pick me up a pair of pants while he is out getting groceries but they are usually ill fitting and ugly, but I have to wear them anyway becasue I am too cold to go naked. I want to go out to shop this weekend but I can't figure out a time where I can escape as Ev will not take anything but boob.
And according to the mommy groups on here co sleeping is the way to go ...god forbid I need sleep like humans do, being a mother means being above human.... and heaven would just fucking burst if someone else fed the baby..I mean she's almost 9 months old and we have only been apart once for an hour ...she is a cute ball and chain but I am tired and overworked, isolated and alone in all this...AP is just not sustainable over years...its seemed doable when it was one or two kids but for 4 years straight? I am at my limit. I need sleep, clothes, a break...
In my next life I want to be a dad....they seem to have it made, no one has the unattainable standards for them