trixxx

umm I'm kinda freaked out with my new mommy friend, Jo. We were kinda friends in grade school and a bit of H/S but lost touch for many years now. I saw her at the park across from my house when I was there with my kids. She ended up living just behind us and has kids of her own now too so it was a pleasant surprise. We have been catching up most afternoons while our kids play and its been mostly great. Our kids love each other and we seem to have the same ideas about things in our lives , however yesterday she broached a subject about what I have been doing the last few years. She has so far seemed to be fairly non judgemental which is why I always liked her but she mentioned some "rumors" that she has heard over the last ten years about me and how I lived before I settled down. It kinda made me uncomfortable and feeling a little defensive. She mentioned she heard I was gay years ago, then she heard I was a crazed druggie and all nuts about partying and the clubbing life. I'm normally not very ashamed of my past because it has made me who I am now and most of my friends have found their way through all the same stuff but she has lived a fairly puritanical life it seems so it feels weird to explain that I wasn't like an addict or anything but that I probably did too many drugs and had lotsa sex with hot girls. I feel its too soon to be so honest about good and bad times I've had especially with someone who probably can't relate...
I just feel wierd in general maybe. I don't fit in anymore with the people that I've spent the last few years hanging out with because my lifestyle is very sober and family oriented now, and I feel its hard to fit in with others that live as I do now because they are...I dunno ...AAAHGG I just find it hard to make friends now.