Fuck forever... There; I said it. I do not need, nor do I want forever. Fuck forever and the ever lasting promise it always fails to fulfill. "We will be together forever and ever..." Pure nonesense. Let us worry about the present. There can be no "forever" if we can not even get through the present. We will never find such a thing as eternity if there is no beginning, no foundation for that glorious ride of love. So once again I put forth the only defense I have; fuck forever. No more talk about forever. No more talk about eternity. No more talk about a future that has not happened yet and therefore may not come to pass. No... None of it... Fuck all of it. Hell; fuck the past too. I do not want to think about anything but the now. Why should we long after a past that has gone? Why should we allow it to haunt us like a spector that never wants to leave? I remember my past, I do not live in it. Yeah, perhaps there are things that I wish I could have back, happier and more innocent times. Times of joy that I my never peak ever again. Still... Why would I want to go back and have them again? I already did all that stuff, for good or ill. It is done and gone. I am just taking the good times to remember fondly and the bad times to remind me why I would never go back. Everything happens for a reason, I am not the person I was before. Nor is anyone I used to know. We are all older, more experienced and different. Things could never be the same again. That forever did not last. Why should the next one? So fuck forever. I want a now. I want this moment... I do not care about what happens in the future as long as I can have this moment. This present is what is important. This now. Forever, eternity or whatever... One day may indeed catch us. Why should we wait though? Why should anyone grow old waiting on a promise of "someday"? What if someday never comes? What if today is indeed all there is? Why let a heart made brittle with words of nothing shatter in to pieces so fine that they cannot be found let alone put together? Have your forever... If it comes... But until then I want the now...
