tristina

so a little while ago i decided to focus all of my free energy on some mental reengineering. i left grad school, cut back my work hours, booked therapy sessions through the rest of the year and bought some be-your-own-therapist type books. i was going to buckle down, give it my all and finally for once calm the fuck down.

then a month ago my family\'s house burnt down.

now i have *the fire* in my life. every morning i wake up and it\'s there waiting for me. i feed it, change it, try to keep it happy. i\'ve never done this before ...but fucking up just isn\'t an option.