This world is so insane. So seriously fucking insane. This happens every day but I don't even know what to say. This is not the way it is supposed to go down.
I've only been home for a week - a week that up until now has been no less than even pleasant, I might add - and now suddenly all hell breaks loose. Alright, maybe hell is a strong word, but a wrong turn somewhere made me at least end up in one of the suburbs. I am so shocked I am shivering all through my body. I am just so tired of my world standing on its end all the time. Why can't it just behave like I want to? And most of all, why can't it leave the peple I love alone?
[And for some fucked up reason it just makes me miss you even more.]
I don't know if this is good or bad. I just know that right now I feel as if I just want to go out into the hallway, put on my shoes and jacket and walk out the door and then just onwards wherever the roads take me until I have regained my balance and my sences again.
Fuck.
Oh wait. That already happened.
I've only been home for a week - a week that up until now has been no less than even pleasant, I might add - and now suddenly all hell breaks loose. Alright, maybe hell is a strong word, but a wrong turn somewhere made me at least end up in one of the suburbs. I am so shocked I am shivering all through my body. I am just so tired of my world standing on its end all the time. Why can't it just behave like I want to? And most of all, why can't it leave the peple I love alone?
[And for some fucked up reason it just makes me miss you even more.]
I don't know if this is good or bad. I just know that right now I feel as if I just want to go out into the hallway, put on my shoes and jacket and walk out the door and then just onwards wherever the roads take me until I have regained my balance and my sences again.
Fuck.
Oh wait. That already happened.
I have a pretty good thign going here and now but sometimes I think if I just put myself out there and went for it that somethign amazing might happen, but once again I don't know that I have the guts to do it.
As of now I am just sitting and trying to let the money pile up so that I can make some kind of movement away from my hometown.
I hope things get better for you.