triskadekaphobia

So, I have this friend in the real world... tonight she driopped a bomb. We have talked alot for almost a year now. and about three month's ago she asks my advice about two guys she has been dating. I did and thought okay, that was interesting... especially since we started to "hang out" a lot, especially at her place. We went out a few times and had some fun but she decided that it would be best to remain friends. Not 100% sure I was okay with that but she has been a good friend for a long time so I figured what the hell, just bide my time.

So the bomshell is this... One of the guys she was datring once before it seems that they still dated occasionally. Well this guy is military and is getting ready to deploy and they decided it was time to go to Vegas and maybe get married. I now that this guy wants to marry my friend but my friend is not 100% sure herself. Her friends are all telling her to go for it, You will have an interesting story to tell when you are old and gray. She tells me she is going on this trip but it all depends on how drunk she get's on whether she will go through with it or not. I have to admit that I am a little bit dissapointed in her, I thought she had a little bit more wisdom just to leave an important decision to just, "Oh, what the hell, if I feel like it after all I'll do it, or if I'm drunk enough I'll so it"

Am I worng here? Now to be fair I don't see the two of us getting married, getting a small house with a white pickett fence and trying to make 2.5 kids and a dog someday. So I can't say that I have her best interest at heart cause deep down inside I just can't offer her all that... but I sure as hell don;t think this guy can either... He could be a great guy but I've never met him and just don;t know wh the fuck he is and if he is the best person for my friend. Especially when she confessed that after a year apart she may end up hating him anyway.... WTF? I'm guessing this is all for the best as it looks like I really don;t know this person after all and good riddance. I do wish her all the best and hope that she finds happiness even if it seems like she is leaving it to chance and accidental happenings. It could work, who the hell am I to say that I'm an expert when I know I'm far from it.

I don;lt know if I'm looking for imput posting here or just felt I needed to write to vent and get my feeling clear on this shit. I do care for this woman... but now I wonder.