What a miserable fucking night. John is mad at me, and for what? Who the fuck knows? He certainly won't tell me. He gives me little stupid clips and expects me to figure it out. At dinner he barely spoke to me, asked me one stupid fucking question and then when back to ignoring me while chatting it up with everyone else. Now I'm sitting...
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warning: meaningless rambling ahead
It's funny how sometimes you accomodate other people's ideas of you unintentionally. Like if they believe certain things about you without delving deeper and they keep that particular attitude, you may actually begin to behave in the manner they 'expect' you to.
I was told tonight by a good friend that I can't be un-emotional, it's just not right, essentially. I...
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It's funny how sometimes you accomodate other people's ideas of you unintentionally. Like if they believe certain things about you without delving deeper and they keep that particular attitude, you may actually begin to behave in the manner they 'expect' you to.
I was told tonight by a good friend that I can't be un-emotional, it's just not right, essentially. I...
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cairo:
I miss miss miss you and love love love you so much.
You should marry me. I'd never disappoint you.
I'd write more but I'm about to pass out and I have work again tomorrow. Nicole I do so dearly love you.
You should marry me. I'd never disappoint you.
I'd write more but I'm about to pass out and I have work again tomorrow. Nicole I do so dearly love you.
Yeah this is dumb. I met this guy and he seems -normal-, I know, a miracle hey? Anyway he's nice and we've been goofing off for the last couple of days and we went out to the bar tonight, had a couple drinks with a bunch of friends, awesome time. He bought me a drink and then went off to talk to some other people...
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cairo:
He sucks.
I'm here baby. I'll call after the work week is done.
and 
I'm here baby. I'll call after the work week is done.
and 
feather:
Guys are pretty stupid most of the time...maybe you should talk to him until he gets the genius idea of talking to you first.
Oi, sometimes i wish i was a lesbian, I think I would be better off that way.
Oi, sometimes i wish i was a lesbian, I think I would be better off that way.
I fucking hate alcoholism. What a useless fucking disease. Explain to me why good people have to be afflicted with a disease that, by its nature, its victims have an impossible time admitting that they have a problem and need to deal with it effectively.
My older brother, whom I love with every fiber of my being, is an alcohlic. My ex-boyfriend of 2 years,...
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My older brother, whom I love with every fiber of my being, is an alcohlic. My ex-boyfriend of 2 years,...
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laerkai:
I'm sorry what you are going through. I used to live an ex-gf who liked to drink way to much all the time. Even after getting herself arrested one night she refused to listen about her problem. Its tough, especially when its someone you love. I can only hope everything works out for you. And since I called her an "ex-gf" it oviously didnt work out. I liked that girl too....
pl4st1kwh0r3:
your family sounds like my, except not my dad, my moms b/f, but I refuse to talk to him, or anyone who drinks for that matter, I dont dtink at all, and all I'll tolerate is occasional drinking, like once a month IF THAT. I can be bossy about it, so ol well. 
I love brothers.
I also love Cairos.
I also love Cairos.
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argentumblack:
Don't we all love Cairos.
cairo:
Naturally, I have to work late this Friday. But that doesn't mean I can't spend time with you sometime this weekend anyway! You're leaving me so soon, and that makes me sad...
Naturally, I have to work late this Friday. But that doesn't mean I can't spend time with you sometime this weekend anyway! You're leaving me so soon, and that makes me sad... So, tell me this: how do you control and get rid of pure, unadultered rage? I mean when it's literally filling your core with so much negative energy that you could just scream or smash something, how do you deal with it? How do you not scream or smash something? How does one remain a civilized, rational person when they're that angry, especially if it's...
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argentumblack:
Luna + Rage = Secluded Area where i can scream till my throat bleeds.
cairo:
He never called. I broke up with him yesterday.
Thesis work blows. I read for 3 or 4 hours or so a day. I love the material, it's just stressful knowing it has to be comprehensively (and convincingly) assimilated into a 30-50 page paper. Bleh. My eyes are exhausted from computer screens and reading small script on big white pages. I've never needed glasses before but I think I do now.
Dad's been calling....
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Dad's been calling....
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I misses the kisses of Cairo. Bitch.
Hanyway.
Dad called mom today and was a jackass. He really, truly cannot comprehend that he acts like a dickface. He really thinks it's everyone else's fault. I hate him. When he calls I instantly get nauseous and tense between the shoulders. If I answer the phone, he hangs up on me. Real mature for a 55 year...
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Bitch.
Hanyway.
Dad called mom today and was a jackass. He really, truly cannot comprehend that he acts like a dickface. He really thinks it's everyone else's fault. I hate him. When he calls I instantly get nauseous and tense between the shoulders. If I answer the phone, he hangs up on me. Real mature for a 55 year...
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cairo:
You're cute and I misses your kisses. I'm totally down for this Sunday. I'll call you for details and chat when the work week is actually done with.
I love you!
I love you!
My little brother is the coolest human being alive. Just when your idiot dad calls you 'porkchop' and tells you basically what a lowlife you are, little brothers swoop in to save the day and they don't even know it...
be ex****: im so proud of you
be ex****: i love when i tell people about you and it's always good things
be ex****: like...
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be ex****: im so proud of you
be ex****: i love when i tell people about you and it's always good things
be ex****: like...
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argentumblack:
Yay! for lil bro's
cairo:
Yo bitch. Jesus loves you.
Miss you!
Miss you!
So it gets better. Dad, who will now be referred to as John, called Mom this morning at work and she told him he's not welcome near this house anymore. The only thing he was allowed to do was to get his shit out of the garage. Fine, dandy. I went Christmas shopping, came home around 3, and his truck was in the driveway so...
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