here today gone tommorrow. i'm not going to sleep tonight.. ive been to college, i've had hundreds of jobs.
now all i can do is wait. wait untill i get my head together. get my shit straight. i have spent all my life preparing and practicing and waiting for this moment. wait untill it all falls into place. falling as i write. falling as i wait. lets hope it doesnt fall apart. everyone and everything will always let you down. i am the final destination. i am rock bottom. there is noone else to blame for all that holds me down. and i am the only one deserving thanks for holding up.{well besides mom}
if this final straw should break, it is the final move i make. this is the life i choose, this is the life i have, this is the life that keeps me waiting.
now all i can do is wait. wait untill i get my head together. get my shit straight. i have spent all my life preparing and practicing and waiting for this moment. wait untill it all falls into place. falling as i write. falling as i wait. lets hope it doesnt fall apart. everyone and everything will always let you down. i am the final destination. i am rock bottom. there is noone else to blame for all that holds me down. and i am the only one deserving thanks for holding up.{well besides mom}
if this final straw should break, it is the final move i make. this is the life i choose, this is the life i have, this is the life that keeps me waiting.
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im staying with my moms right now.. and i guess i'm lucky she still likes me enough to let me stay here... i'm in between jobs and locations.. and not really doing much about it. its nice to have computers to use and food to eat from time to time. beds with sheets, tvs with channels. showers with soap, all that shit. i dont consider it useing her, anymore than we have been using each other our whole lives. she knows/hopes that i'll pay off one day. and she knows i need the rest...
.............so what is it about those canadian girls. why are they so much fun, and why do they live so far away. the canada crew on sg is on fire! its wierd.. when i travel to international cities, while stareing off at the skyline, i always end up meeting and hanging out with some cool canadian girls. they dont give a fuck.. they waltz right up talking about..heh.. and i'm all ....heh? we shoot the shit and party like maniacs.
there is a lesson to be learned. maybe theres something in the water.. or maybe theres something in our water. maybe it's all inside my head. ahh who cares? im just writing to be writing. im used to writing to the people that just dont care. while the ones that do, will never see a line. usually most lines to get past me. but not tonight sweetheart. i've got to do something nice for my new girlfriend...her birthday is this weekend.. and though i have known her for a while i dont really know what to get her/do for her.... well for starters i'll be traveling 400 miles just to get there. shouldnt that be enough?. nah... shes a pretty classy lady.. she needs somthing nice. she not one for shoes or hand bags, or other typical girlie stuff.. it would be cool to get her something girlie to let her know i thought of her that way though.... but then she would'nt have any other items to accesorize with.lol. i dont know, i'll figure it out.. i might pick her up a accoustic gtr. similar to the one i have... we saw it at a pawn shop last time she was in town. we stayed up all night then went cruzing downtown on my bad ass kawasaki *150* lil' eliminator... untill the pawn shops and other trinket stores all opened up for us. it was 199.99 and i will definatly get it for her if i can scrape the cash... shes my good times. so if your still reading this your prolle pretty cool, and should definatly join my friend list. i wanna go to canada and do my best to survive the cold, sometime in my life. and not just for the awsome girls either. i wanna know what makes you PEOPLE so funny and light hearterd. while we wallow in piss e ness. i know this is a major generalization, gained through small personal experience, but i am definatly starting to see a pattern here. if anyone can offer any insite to this mystery i'd love to hear it. ...
ive been writing for a while now so i think i better......
shut the fuck up..