i went and got my navel pierced this is like the third time.. woohoo i was all escited i calle dmom and was all "i am getting my navel pierced mommy woohoo" haha she just laughed at me.
have you ever thought about just picking up all your stuff and taking off and starting all over again. new surroundings, new people, new things, and finally doing what you wanna do?!?!
my goal is to take photography and to get a job in that field.. dad says i wouldn't be able to get a job looking the way i do. he isn't happy with who i am. he will only be happy if i am what he wants me to be, same with mom. my dad is going towards the not caring anymore as mom is "rawr".
the other night when i was working on my walls i figured if mom and dad do go through with a divorce and i am still living in the hell hole. i would mot likely live iwth dad. as much as it would break moms heart and as much as i would miss her and shit it would be so much easier he gives me so much more free space. yeah mom is all paranoid and araid her "little baby" will get hurt or whatnot but hello i am 19 years old i can take care of myself if i have a problem she KNOWS i will go and ask for some help in some way or her opinion. the other day i told her i about my tat i am getting on my leg in hopefully july or august and she was all freaking out b/c she doesn't want me to regret it. but she lets me do it and she knows she can't stop me.
i think for myself and i think it scares her so much b/c i voice my opinions way too much. i am not one who will just let ppl walk all over me. i stand up for who i am. and goddamnit i am gald i fucking do. i may be little but damnit i got a big ass mouth...
well its 3:30am i am gonna go smoke a cigarette and get back to stripping wallpaper woohoo.. nite loves
have you ever thought about just picking up all your stuff and taking off and starting all over again. new surroundings, new people, new things, and finally doing what you wanna do?!?!
my goal is to take photography and to get a job in that field.. dad says i wouldn't be able to get a job looking the way i do. he isn't happy with who i am. he will only be happy if i am what he wants me to be, same with mom. my dad is going towards the not caring anymore as mom is "rawr".
the other night when i was working on my walls i figured if mom and dad do go through with a divorce and i am still living in the hell hole. i would mot likely live iwth dad. as much as it would break moms heart and as much as i would miss her and shit it would be so much easier he gives me so much more free space. yeah mom is all paranoid and araid her "little baby" will get hurt or whatnot but hello i am 19 years old i can take care of myself if i have a problem she KNOWS i will go and ask for some help in some way or her opinion. the other day i told her i about my tat i am getting on my leg in hopefully july or august and she was all freaking out b/c she doesn't want me to regret it. but she lets me do it and she knows she can't stop me.
i think for myself and i think it scares her so much b/c i voice my opinions way too much. i am not one who will just let ppl walk all over me. i stand up for who i am. and goddamnit i am gald i fucking do. i may be little but damnit i got a big ass mouth...
well its 3:30am i am gonna go smoke a cigarette and get back to stripping wallpaper woohoo.. nite loves
as much as your parents love you and want what's best for you, they don't seem to be able to let you lead your life on your terms. that, of course, will change when you're out and on your own.. but for now, don't let it get to you.
always be true to you.