so i woke up today and i am wicked sick i am dead to the world i just wanna lay in bed and wath movies and sleep, cuddle.. blah.. i am supppose to go to umass dartmouth tonight to visit mike and drink but i might just go and sleepin his bed. maybe he will then stop saying i didn't visit him all semister.
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okay so i had a big entry but i deleted it b/c i am sick of everything.
i am sick of the way i feel and have felt. i am sick of how ppl act. i am sick of this world being so money hungry.
i hate distance and i hate being here and not there.
i feared this week of losing her. i fear...
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i am sick of the way i feel and have felt. i am sick of how ppl act. i am sick of this world being so money hungry.
i hate distance and i hate being here and not there.
i feared this week of losing her. i fear...
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freyja__:
horray for feeling better.
deeeeep breaths.
remember: when you're sick of everything..
the only thing you can change about this world is yourself
how you handle and react to things.
people will be retarded forever
you just have to learn to take it with a spoonful of sugar.
deeeeep breaths.
remember: when you're sick of everything..
the only thing you can change about this world is yourself
how you handle and react to things.
people will be retarded forever
you just have to learn to take it with a spoonful of sugar.
broken_reality:
I've felt that way for months now. Got a little better after talking with an old friend but then rite back to suicidal/homicidal feelings/urges. Like I don't give a fuck about anything. Want to snap and go on a murder spree. The meds I take keep me barely sane. Just want to sleep forever....
~~~okay so its been awhile since i have really said anythig or done anything. i didn't sleep for two days i cried off and one for hours upon hours. i felt/feel worthless, and so shitty about myself. i hate/d myself. it has been so long since i have been in this situation it hit me hard, so unexpectedly.
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scarlett:
Aw good luck, things can only get better from here *hug*
freyja__:
oh yea?
what brings you to NYC?
hmm?
xoxo
what brings you to NYC?
hmm?
xoxo
i have no emotions i have shut them off. i try and find them but they don't seem to want to be found.
i got home from boston at about 2:30ish and i went driving around in my car i didn't want to come home i just wanted to stay aay form my house as far as possible. now i am sitting here trying to...
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i got home from boston at about 2:30ish and i went driving around in my car i didn't want to come home i just wanted to stay aay form my house as far as possible. now i am sitting here trying to...
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leavemehere:
im jealous
you met some sg's that id like to meet
ive only met one
lucky you
you rock with your factory 81
ciao
lmh
you met some sg's that id like to meet
ive only met one
lucky you
you rock with your factory 81
ciao
lmh
edea:
hey babe~
sorry about last night on AIM as you know i was having comp problems
Grrrrrr...
well i hope you are feeling better
i got my pics back today so i should be sending to you soon!!!
love you lots!!
love me
sorry about last night on AIM as you know i was having comp problems
Grrrrrr...
well i hope you are feeling better
i got my pics back today so i should be sending to you soon!!!
love you lots!!
love me
i have been cleaning for three days straight and i am not getting sick of it makes me kinda scared haha. maybe i should be a cleaning bitch instead ofa retail bitch.
my car is being fixed right now HOPEFULLY. it fucking better be i kinda need it tonight after ryan and i pick up anna. god i can't wait to see anna.
so tns...
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my car is being fixed right now HOPEFULLY. it fucking better be i kinda need it tonight after ryan and i pick up anna. god i can't wait to see anna.
so tns...
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tattoosnscrews:
First Night = Foooked Up! I love ya Hun!!!
disgorge:
Call me soon before I beat you up.
i feel i am losing everyone or is it just me being paranoid. no i am not paranoid. i am right i am losing everyone. ah well fuck it.
i just wish everything was so simple and right. i wish everything was so easy. i wish i knew how some felt, or how you felt.
if you would let me i would give you my...
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i just wish everything was so simple and right. i wish everything was so easy. i wish i knew how some felt, or how you felt.
if you would let me i would give you my...
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tattoosnscrews:
i think i lost my mind and im slowly losing everybody else too.
a35mmlife:
i dont like the expression through blood and i still stand by statements... im not searching for reasons. i have my reasons... agree with them or not... its simple.
i am scared to be who i am b/c of you. i am scared to live my life to the fullest in fear of rejection b/c you make it sound like i am the fucking devil. i have problems telling ppl how i feel deep down inside b/c you always answered for me. you never let me think for myself. it was not to long...
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nyhcx516:
*hug*
tattoosnscrews:
You are not alone ...
everything seems like its moving so fast. and then their are times i feel it is going too slow...
i want everything to be so perfect. want it to go right
i just want to let it all go the way i want it to
theirs so much going on in my head that i don't even know where to start sometimes. i can never...
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i want everything to be so perfect. want it to go right
i just want to let it all go the way i want it to
theirs so much going on in my head that i don't even know where to start sometimes. i can never...
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jaeparlae:
do you live in boston? i live in amherst, MA..=)
i could definitely relate to the first 2 sentences you wrote above right now in my life as i am yearning to move to australia but have so much to get a grip on here before i move..
i could definitely relate to the first 2 sentences you wrote above right now in my life as i am yearning to move to australia but have so much to get a grip on here before i move..
jaeparlae:
im an idiot .. i just saw your location on your profile..dont mind me..south grafton..huh? where is that to amherst..?
ugh
need vacation... need vacation... did i mention i need a vacation. not even from work just from my house.
so my friend calls me last night and tells me shes coming up from texas on the 15. my response "you can't i am gonna be in boston". so then shes all well i could come up the 16. so i tell her to take...
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need vacation... need vacation... did i mention i need a vacation. not even from work just from my house.
so my friend calls me last night and tells me shes coming up from texas on the 15. my response "you can't i am gonna be in boston". so then shes all well i could come up the 16. so i tell her to take...
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grrlhavoc:
TEXAS WOOHOOOO
freyja__:
why not just bring her to boston?
mmm vacation.
i need one, too.
xo
mmm vacation.
i need one, too.
xo
my room is almost done!! god its taken me like 3 months for this shit.
i went to target with my mom last night to get a comforter for my bed and well she drove me insane first we got in a huge fight about the size of my room. i was saying it wasn't 12' x 12' and she was swearing up and down...
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i went to target with my mom last night to get a comforter for my bed and well she drove me insane first we got in a huge fight about the size of my room. i was saying it wasn't 12' x 12' and she was swearing up and down...
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googused:
Rule #1: If you are over the age of 13, NEVER go shopping with your mom!
i am lost in this world. i don't know where to go i am stuck. i am trying to find a reason and i just can't. i have been freaking out so much lately with the anixety and just stress. i am gonna be taking a couple hours tonight to just get my mind straight to get things back to normal. everytime i get like...
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csilla:
oh man i totally know how that feels. youll get through it. just be patient. now maybe i should go listen to some of my own advice...
chicago:
i know all about confused crappy days.my bday is like most of my days with my so called friends;nothing.HA. ironic isnt it?someday the person you are unknowingly waiting for will appear and life wont seem so bad.much love girl.
i am so goddamn bored nothing to do. i attempted todo the hot pink stars on my wall and i just got so annoyed i started to cry... go me... i have been so emotional lately and i don't know why.
i am missing this girl and its hurting. she makes me happy and fele so good inside, whether i see her or think of...
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i am missing this girl and its hurting. she makes me happy and fele so good inside, whether i see her or think of...
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ttubretep:
HEY...I just realized you're in MA, and I'm in CT, which makes you the closest member of SG to me that I've run across, as of yet.
freyja__:
emotional.
i know all about it.
xo
i know all about it.
xo
it will all work out.
where there's a will, there's a way.
*hugs* and