trickypixie

So its long but important I guess...so if you're bored you can read it lol and tell me whatever good or bad.

Job interview went as well as could be I guess...my bf and his sis warned me I was the best looking thing going in there with a layered black swooshy skirt a nice pink and black flower shirt that can go nicely off the shoulder and lil mary jane flats hair pinned back and make up done. I just thought that's how you dress when you go to get applications and do interviews no matter how crummy the place may be well.. I was def the nicest looking person in there and the other girl who came to wait as we were waiting for the manager was in booty shorts and a tank top.....so yeaa. Not that there's something wrong with that but damn it is a job interview..anywho

25 minutes later of waiting thank God I was scheduled before her. and an hour an a half later of him talking mindlessly about what stockers do and I had already told him by the hours he gave that i couldnt do it cause Ive done overnight stocking I work 8 to 9 hours over night 5 nights a week and the 2 nights off felt like 1 cause you slept the whole one day off but my body didnt like it and I ended up in the hospital. So I told him i couldnt do the weird overnight hours they had of only 4 nights a week..bitch 4 nights a week is not gonna cut it right now. I told him I would like to hear about the cashier job and he still talked aimlessly about stock. and TEXTED and half the convo was UM UM UM. I had a mind to tell him he was wasting my time but I need some sort of job.

On top of that they made it seem like they would be hiring a few stockers and a few cashiers...well no...they are hiring one of each..so Ive got a super small percentage. Hopefully I can get in cause just we need something..let mew put it this way. If we werent living with his sister and we moved down here to a cheap house for rent etc etc which there are a lot here..we wouldnt be able to eat, drive, have toilet paper, etc simple shit and big things and Im literally not exaggerating. We used all the money getting down here and didnt realize that we wouldnt have anything left but the truck that held our stuff was about $100 to fill up each time.....didnt foresee that. specially since he drove up when he moved with me and it wasnt like that. so yea..

And then just wow and then!! my cousin..fav cousin in the wholeeee world..basically my sister..just had a baby things are tight for them as well but they are doing well jobs, live with her parents etc, they are okay, for the most part. Id do anything for her. She calls me crying venting which is fine about how her guy is basically not putting the right things first etc,,,next day texts my bf not me cause she knows what i would say, texts him as says her mans bday is coming which I know and that he wants a new paintball gun before November its $255 can he help pay for it?...BITCH!! Im broke..did you see me send a present to your mom?..NO!...would I have liked to..YES! Im fucking broke..Im barely getting buy with the fucking $10 I have in my coin jair and at the time $20 he had in his account..oh yea we are rolling in money. And she knows when we have money..

1. I owe my mom $300 and about $100 each month
2. We have to pay my bfs bail money (long story nothing felony) he got payed through disability the other day so we finished bail with $400 which concluded the $5000 bail....and I did it with waitressing my ass off getting great tips and picking up a million shifts. You need a job to have money I mean hello!!!
3. We have to pay his sister rents which is about $200 to $300 we havent quite discussed it fully
4. We need to save money to move the fuck out.

so no I cant chip in!!..I would love to though. It just makes me so mad that sometimes they don't see anything but themselves. I would love a bunch of things for my birthday but Im not going to get them. I would love everyone to give me gifts but that never happens and Im not there and money is tight for basically everyone and I dont expect anything.

I just..ugg...I feel like if she saw this she would still some how find a way to reverse it on me and I would never ask her to do something for me or spend money on me if she couldnt. Im just not like that and not that it's bad but I dont ask for things like that. I asked for a few months back that if you do get me something just give me money instead of trying to figure out what I like and that went to everyone. I havent really said much else and will soon be revising that statement that no one probably payed attention to anyways literally. This is not a pity party its just I know how my family and friends are. Things important to them get payed attention to not what matters to the other person. Sometimes it works the other way but I know how everyone sees things. I observe rather than run my mouth.