trekka

I don't even...

So, I'm having this super seemingly bipolar mood situation right now where I want to write a blog but I don't. So, I'm just going to start typing and see where it goes...

First some tunes..

So thiiiiiis is my favorite dubstep remix of any rap song ever. Of all time. It's amazing. You should probably listen to it. Now.

Well, life has been really fabulous lately. Job is going great, things with my man are just flat out fantastic, working on finding a place to move out to, I've been feeling good, the whole she-bang!

And then...

Today I got a notice saying that my wages were being garnished. The thing that is so frustrating about it is that I've been on a payment plan for these old tickets and shit that I owed on and I thought ALL of it was included in what I've been paying. Well surprise: It wasn't. I tried to call and explain that I misunderstood. That I thought it was all included and all that. The state isn't very understanding with that sort of thing. I mean, I guess as they shouldn't be anyway. I'm sure tons of people lie about that shit every day. How are they to know I'm being honest?

So now, 25% of my weekly checks go to my debt with the state....

Which means I will have 1/4 less income....

And my credit score will once again be absolute shit.



MOTHER FUCKER!!!

I swear, just when I think life is going great and I'm getting back out on top, the universe opens up and shits on my fucking face.

So, I spent a big part of my day crying in my cubicle and avoiding eye contact with my co-workers so I wouldn't have to explain my bloodshot eyeballs and mascara streaks down my cheek that I kept thinking I'd wiped away, but hadn't. I don't want my co-workers to A) know about my financial bullshit and B) know that I'm a giant pussy.

(side note: that was "AM a giant pussy" not HAVE a giant pussy. My pussy is quite petite and adorable actually. Not giant and flappidy. Just wanted to clarify. )

Anyways...

I talked to my handsome and sweet boyfriend on my lunch and he cheered me up. He wants me to move into his place with his roommate, who is a cool guy and LOVES me! But, like a year ago when Jesse moved here and into his house, his roommate Josh said "no girlfriends can live here". But here's the deal, I've become good buddies with Josh, he trusts me, know I have a good job, I clean a lot, take good care of his animals, all that AND the situation is that me and Jesse have been planning on getting a house together next summer, so I'd only have to live there for a few months anyways! I am hoping he will be cool and allow it and Jesse is gonna ask him soon. So, we'll see. But I'm not going to get my hopes up! Because we alllll know what happens when we do that!

But Jesse has been really great about putting a smile on my face and said if Josh says no he's going to do anything in his power to help me figure something out. This kid...


While I'm on the topic of him, we are getting more and more excited about our road trip to Washington state (which now he's paying completely for. my bad) But it's really going to be a good (busy) time. We leave here Dec 22 at like 4 am and should get up to Seattle late that evening. Then we'll get to spend a few days with his HUGE family and his 2 daughters and then drive home the 26th. It's gonna be crazy and exhausting but I'm up for it! It will be my first Christmas away from home and somewhere where it actually gets cold! Haha! His mom has been sending me long and sweet emails lately to update me on all the plans and tell me about his daughters and all his siblings and what to expect. That kind of thing. Everyone seems really stoked to meet me! LOL So, it'll be a good Christmas I think.

Unless they hate me. That's always a possibility. And really the only possibility that is making me nervous about the whole thing. He swears they'll love me. We'll see! Haha!

In other semi interesting news.. I helped trim like 15 pounds of bud this last weekend! Haha! Call me crazy, but it wasn't nearly as boring to me as it was to all the guys. They hate it. But to me, it was so calming and reaxing! Just the repetition and scrutinizing each bud looking for any signs of mold and trimming off the stems..... My mind hasn't been so clear since I used to paint regularly. That's what it was like for me: Art. Is that weird? I guess it's like how some people knit. It's the same kind of thing. The strain I was working on is called Ultraviolet and it's beautiful and sticky and purple... I would never take a photo of someone else's product out of respect so I have no photos to share but I WISH you could see it. LOL Goddamn..


It's the only medication i use anymore. I literally never even smoke anymore just for fun or anything. I've really gone to using it strictly medicinally. It works better than Xanax, that's for sure and I can function like a normal human being on it. Not so much on the Xanax. I dunno. It effects people differently, you know? That's why it pisses me off when people label me as a dumb pothead or something like that. There was a time that I just smoked to get stoned and be silly and do silly things. But, I've grown a lot. I learned a lot more about the plant in relation to the mental issues I have. And I've learned how to use it to benefit me and my state. I've really grown to appreciate the plant on a level that I never did as a kid and I think that's key. And I know my limits and how different strains affect me, etc. Plus, I never pay for it! So it's free medicine. Which is aplus for a gal with no insurance!

Why did I just babble about that forever?

Sorry, Mr. President Nixon, Sir.

Anyways... that's my lil update situation! Life is crazy, but as my man keeps reminding, being depressed and sad doesn't get me anywhere. All I can do is try to stay positive and know everything -somehow- will work out. I'm not sure HOW yet, but I'm sure that will come in due time. Thanks for letting me vent and babble of nonsensical things. Hope it was mildly entertaining! LOL I will try to write a better more fun blog soon! Hope you all are fabulous! I will try to catch up on some of yer blogs tonight and see what you have been up to these days!

Also, I really love you who actually still read my blogs cuz you are the ones who have been around for me since the begining. You are awesome and I really want to send you all Christmas cards or something this year to show you how much it means to me! Honestly, friends are hard to come by for me lately and even though you all are in far away lands, I consider you better friends than most people I know in real life. So thanks for everything! And I'm serious, if you want a Christmas/holiday card, shoot me a PM with your address and I'll make you one!

One more song for inspiration, huh?


Anwyays!!! Talk soon, cool cats!



P.S. You can follow me on Imstagram if you want! I post way too many pictures on there because I am random and use it as a crutch when I get bored. Lol username: zombie_kitty
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