trekka

New blog with no purpose...

This is what I'm listening to while I type:

Enjoy!!! If you hold out til 0:55 you'll start bouncing uncontrollably throughout the rest of the song. Unnnnng!

Sooooooo.....

Not a whole lot has happened since my last blog, really, except for one MAJOR problem:

I officially have lost the love for my job.


I know right?! It was bound to happen at some point or another. It's just that... well... How do I put this nicely? My boss is kind of a bitch. Now don't get me wrong, I have always known this and have been fine with it, until it was released on me and her and I got into a bit of a fight at work. Since that moment I can tell she doesn't dig me as much and I have DEFINITELY lost a shit-ton of respect for her.

And so, the hunt has begun. The hunt for a new job.

It's a daunting task, really. And I hate it. I hate it. The whole updating my resume bull shit and the footwork of searching for a job I know not only will pay the bills, but one that I can stand going to every day. Ugh..... It's stressing me out just thinking about it right now!

Things with the new boy are going great in my humble opinion. I shall leave it at that!

I dyed my hair brown again the other day. I actually really like it. I didn't think I would because I was so used to doing crazy colors for a while. But I rather like the simplicity of my hair at the moment, so that's good.

I'm feeling terribly unmotivated lately which is a bad thing. Big time. I can't find the motivation to work out, to clean, to work, to... anything really. Which means I'm depressed. Which means I need to make time for my therapist. .... But I don't even have the motivation to do that! Ugh... I'm in a slump.

....Which, by the way, is totally unexpected now that I have a man in my life who makes me smile. The only real moments that I feel fully relaxed is in his arms. It's when I am there that I find all the other bull shit seems to melt away. I wish I could stay there forever.

How lame do I sound right now?!

I'm actually hoping that this passionate romance is just what I need to refuel my fire for art and creating it. I'm just so anxious to get my fingers on some paint, but the inspiration and motivation have been lacking tremendously. Maybe once I really start to get my feet wet in this whole "love" thing, the motivation will find me! *crosses fingers*

Here are some random shots from the last couple days...
A cute puffer fish in the tank at my favorite sushi joint:

Blend with rum:

saw this on Tumblr and I jacked it:

With brown hairs:

All healed up and loving the colored clouds with my raven:

puppy love:

staring contest:

my dad's lazy cat Mitzy:

hand drum time:


So, what's next?

Well, in the next few days, since I was taken off the work schedule for this week ( ) I will be applying for new jobs, updating my resume, hanging out with the boy, drinking heavily, smoking a lot of good weed, and hopefully taking a lot more pictures than I have been. Yup... I think that sounds about right!

I've been poking my nose into Chat a bit lately, but I always seem to bump into people I don't wanna talk to there. I love SGchat though and have been neglecting it lately. I'm sorry, my friends! but I'll try to stop by more often, especially now that my work schedule allows it. lol

Much love and thanks for hanging in there through a boring-ass, pointless blog! Haha!