Monday Aug 15, 2011

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And I can sing hiiiiiiiiiigh!


Hahahaha! In case you need a good laugh, watch the video above. Step Brothers is easily one of my favorite comedies of all time. I quote it on the daily. LOVE IT!

Anyways, I promised an explanation on what all went down with "the boyfriend" so I'm gonna do my best to explain it without being a total cunt and putting him on blast. ....

Have any of you seen the independent film, Catfish? It's basically a documentary on a guy who falls in love with a woman online and then he slowly starts to unravel this twisted tale about how the woman he fell in love with was all an elaborate story another lady came up with. All the photos sent were someone else, songs were someone else.... it was ALL fake. So the guy goes to the address to find the woman he fell in love with over the web, and he finds a fat middle aged woman who created the whole lie.

Yeah... That's exactly what happened to me. LOL

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Chris (CK_ or MEEEE) was a fake. All the photos he had on his profile were of his friend. The band he claimed to be in, was his friend's band. Everything he said was a flat out lie. I uncovered this while doing a little online research of the band he claimed to be a part of. I found the band's MySpace and whatnot and discovered that the images I had of Chris, were actually of the lead singer of this band, whose name is Ryan. So, I sent Ryan a friend request on Facebook and he accepted. He was online at the time so I messaged him asking if he knew who Chris was. He DID know who he was, they were friends on XBox live.

Everything.... EVERYTHING... was a lie.

I confronted Chris about this and he broke down and confessed that he made it all up and has, essentially, stolen Ryan's identity to create this fantasy life.

I was pissed. And I mean livid. How could someone fuck with another person's emotions like that??? How?! I told him i don't forgive him, which I don't and I most likely never will. I feel like my mind was raped! I shared a lot with this person, who as it turns out is married still and allllllll sorts of other bull shit. *sigh*

There is this part of me that (surprisingly enough) feels bad for him. I mean, how shitty does your life have to be that you have to lie and create a false life for yourself just to feel good? Like I said, I don't forgive him, but my bleeding heart does hate to see people in so much pain.

I was gonna try to tip toe around this subject so as to not hurt him, but I wanted to share this story with you guys. It has been weighing heavily on my mind. Also, hopefully some of you can learn from my mistake and never let something like this happen to you!

I was just so desperate to be in love again, ya know? I was blinded with DARK rose colored glasses and just wanted to believe that people are generally good and honest. Of course, I was proven to be the fool there. But honestly, I'm over him. I don't even know who the real HIM is, ya know? Nor do I care to learn.

The amazing thing about it is that I have become friends with Ryan (the guy he was posing as) and Ryan's wife, as well as the guys from the actual band. HAHA! They have been so cool and supportive and funny and just absolutely fabulous!



One door closes and another opens, right? That's what they say! Whoever "they" are, I think they're right! smile

In other news...

Work has been busy busy busy! It's back to school time, so EVERYONE is getting new shoes. We have been having lines out the door! It's insane! It's been a tad stressful, but fun for the most part! I've really been enjoying it! It feels so good to be a member of the working class again. I feel like I have purpose everyday and I can see myself growing a lot from it. Also, I'm getting into better shape with all the running around and lifting and yadda yadda yadda... so that's pretty badass. tongue

No luck on getting ahold of any staff photographers to shoot a set, but I did briefly speak to Silencia about her shooting a set for me! I need to talk to her more about it. I also have to figure out how I can afford to get my ass up to Oregon. haha! But, all in good time. I don't need to rush! Life is too short for me to spend it worried and stressed all the time, especially about things I really don't have control over. So, I'll figure something out. I DO know that I desperately want to shoot a new set and have a vision in my head of what I'd like it to entail, etc.

Speaking of sets...
This little gem is still kickin it in MR

...along with this oldie


Speaking of sets, go check out the following ladies' sets and LOVE THEM TO PIECES
Thanatogenous
Boomie
Jaxy
Toxic
Lorelei
Bradley

I know there are tons of other amazing sets, but these women have been such great friends to me and supported me through thick and thin and just been there for me. So go give them lots of love!

Hmmmmm........ pictures!













I was really hoping to be able to report many more fun happenings to you guys in this blog, but that's the way the cookie crumbles! smile But I am doing ok and I have my VERY MUCH NEEDED vacation coming up to ....
HELL CITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be spending time with my best friend, Thanatogenous and the whole gang and I could not be more excited about that!! Still need to get some cute little outfits to wear in that damn Arizona heat! haha! But, I'm not worried. I'll get it figured out. smile I was supposed to be going there with a good camera (something that was promised by the liar boy frown ) but unfortunately I'll just have my shitty camera. But I will, OF COURSE, try to take lots of fun pictures to document this extravaganza! God, I can't fucking wait!!!

So, I s'pose that's all for now, my crazy awesome friends! I've got lots of work this week, a possible booty call with Brando, I wanna try to get to the movies to see 30 Minutes or Less, hopefully hang out with the bestie (Thana) at some point, and I have a family reunion this weekend. So, hopefully I will have a more entertaining update for you all next time!

Thanks for letting me vent and share, guys! This blog really serves a great purpose for me so thanks for reading and giving me your input. It really means the world to me, as do you.


Sending you all lots of lovins!

VIEW 25 of 45 COMMENTS
wolfox:
holy hells that you had t'go through all that insanity... gods!

at least you have Step Brothers to fall back on?
hyatt:
Sorry to hear about that unpleasantness, Trekka. :\ But I guess it's led you to the real people, and that's really great. Hope you're feeling much better.

At least you have this great job now with people you get along with well. That's worth it's weight in gold! And I'm sure Hell City will wipe all the crap right outta your mind. smile

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