My shadow's
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again.
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in
My shadow.
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through.
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through.
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me.
This song says more than I can about myself right now.
Here are some random shots from the last week:
*sigh* (this has since been fixed, don't worry. lol)
House/dog-sitting
Its been rainy the last few days, which doesn't bug me too much except that it makes all the cherry blossoms fall down.
That's really all I have to say today. I'm happy. I'll probably have a better update for ya after this weekend. I just felt like dumping some pictures and some relevant music.
I did this today. It was intended as stage one of 2 (or 3) but a few people say they're diggin the slight Paramore orange streakage. So hmmmm.... I still have 2 weeks before my shoot to figure out what I wanna do. What do you think???
I'm happy. I'll probably have a better update for ya after this weekend. I just felt like dumping some pictures and some relevant music. 
Haha!
and it looks SO nice and warm there! *envious*