trechriron

So. What does it mean? I feel like a chapter has ended in my life. I gave the corporate thing a go. Something I thought I wanted. Security. Money. In the end, it was all bullshit. They cut me loose without so much as a "Thanks" or time to say goodbye. Unceremonious. They even suckered me in with some innocuous sounding meeting then sprung it on me. "I have a script, so I don't screw this up". He says. "Do to the economic downturn the company has been forced to make deeper cuts. Effectively immediately your employment is terminated". I am glad I went numb because I feared this and I was afraid I would have a heart attack. Somewhere inside me I had surrendered long ago. It wasn't as much surprising as it was expected. I thought to myself - this is typical. Of course I am being screwed. Could this have gone any other way?

I have to be the biggest idiot on the planet. I keep believing, I keep hoping, I keep trusting and I keep getting screwed. Our society has reached that magic point where the superficial now outweighs the substance. In droves. We are heartless soulless peasants who just float along with the current, spending our money like good little whores, losing all knowledge of loyalty, commitment, integrity, honor, or family. Just shells. Shills. Peasant whores.

I wonder if my bosses really knew what value I brought to them. I hardly felt they measured my work so much as they hounded me to deadlines. The all mighty date. The ignorant and uninformed upper leadership would draw some arbitrary line in the sand, more aligned with their political promises and blood money, and then expect the experts to try and jam all their greedy idiocy into a compressed, unrealistic schedule. I am not going to miss stupid bosses. I am not going to miss being a number.

So, I ask. What does it mean? When unemployment hits 10+%, and we can only replace it with some minimum wage job, and we lose everything, and there is no more credit, and everyone has been kicked out their homes by the banks, and the banks have fleeced us for every dime, and our taxes are so high we have to choose between working or eating, and all the rich laugh all the way to their ivory towers leaving the rest of us behind to fester and rot. Then what? Why are we doing this? Why are we playing along?

Fuck them. I will never trust them again. I will never give myself to them again. I will not be some peasant whore for the pleasure of people who are morally bankrupt soulless greedy heartless pig fuckers. Fuck corporate America. Fuck the soulless demons that run it, and support it, and pillage, rape, and destroy in its name. I am going to start my own business. I am going to live small and get out from the heal of the fascist pig fuckers. You haven't stopped me. You can take all my shit, take my credit score, take my money, but you can't take my heart and soul. Fuck you, you can't take me.

Fuck you Corporate America. I am free.