trebo

I'm not gonna do it. Well probably not. I am going to try to be a waitress. Wages and tips; that's better anyway AND I get to keep my clothes on. I don't know how much you know about stripping, but they earn all the money off tips. There is no law that says they must have wages through the club, in fact they usually have to pay a "stage fee" plus pay the bouncer and DJ. It's called "tipping out". Granted lots of them still make bank, but not all. My friend did it and the first night she made $3. Second night she made $13. She had to tip out like $50 every night. I told her not to do it anymore and she did anyway. When I did it once I made more than her. It was really sad. The saddest part was that she kept doing it and never made that much money. I made more than her at my barely-over-minimum-wage jobs (this REALLY pissed her off) AND I was much happier than her. She started doing drugs and was drunk every night. She was going to school with a full-ride scholarship and lost it. I was tortured by what dancing did to her.

On the other hand, I have two other friends that dance and they are both okay. Okay as they can be. One doesn't drink or do any drugs at all. They are both in long-term relationships. It doesn't seem so bad. I am thinking of trying to waitress there. Sometimes the waitresses make more money anyway - in tips - plus the club has to pay at least minimum wage which is $7.10. What do you think? I am going to try a non-strip club place first. I just need to obtain employment quickly you see... I really want to be a SG. I tried once with no avail. I met London. She had me go to her apartment to have some pictures taken for Missy and (fate I suppose) her digital camera wouldn't work. It was very depressing. Then she broke her foot at Dante's. Then I had the first surgery. Wasn't meant to be maybe. She told me she would keep all my info on file. I was thinking about applying again. I am afraid to though. I would die of happiness to be a SG. God, what a goal! I LOVE pin-up photography and I love Marilyn Monroe. The guy I am seeing told me, without knowing about my pin-up fetish, that I remind him of an old pin-up girl from the fifties. So did my sister's friend, yeaterday in fact. Ah, I am fantasizing...feels so nice! I don't want to stop.

I am only separating this because I am afraid it would cut me off (that's happened to me before...ha ha!).

That would be weird to learn about family I didn't know existed. Wasn't that odd? It could happen. I don't know my dad...that is a ton of family I automatically do not know! Also, I know that I have a brother that got put up for adoption before I was born. Try not to think about those things. Sometimes I wonder how much not knowing my father affects me. I don't think it does, but it must. There isn't even a name on my birth certificate. Are you close with you astranged family???

I am sure you will do really well this term! You always seem to do well!

I am listening to one of my fav bands. It is making me crave my own band, which makes me not want a second job. I would die of happiness to have a band and be a journalist, liberal of course. I would just die of happiness. I think I just like the sound of my own voice, figuratively and literally. Ha ha! My favorite things are all forms of self-expression. Ironically I am often accused of not sharing my feelings.

Thanks for being so supportive!