trans_am_phoenix

So as if I couldn't get in any worse a mood, today turned into the worst day of my life.


My dream job at the RAF has slipped through my fingers, because my old work gave me a reference so negative they couldn't employ me on it.

So all my dreams of everything, clearing my few debts I have left, moving out, learning to drive, getting some cash in my pocket, well, it's all evaporated because my old work are so petty because I didn't laugh at their jokes and didn't enjoy their company and didn't make the effort to suck up.

I'm at the end of my tether. I've been unemployed since november, and now what can I do? I'm unemployable to any decent job (y'know, the ones that check references) because my previous employers are such utter dicks. There's nothing I can do but be resigned to shit jobs, doing shit I don't want to do for the rest of my life and having to accept that I am pinned down by my previous employers.

I woke up this morning feeling a bit miserable, but now my day has turned so unbearably terrible I don't know what I'm gonna do.

My mum was gonna lend me the money so that I could do this weekend, but I'm not sure she'll be so keen now, now that she knows I still won't have a way to pay it back. So I might not get to do the thing I've looked forward to for about a year. Fantastic.

So if I could offer one piece of advice to anyone in life about anything right now, it would be to not go into full time employment unless you're mega forced.