So my husband got kicked out of the army we are getting a divorce and I no longer have any of my meds. They are completely out of my system, I also have no insurance anymore. I am at my last nerve, I can't find a job in this town. They don't like that I have tattoos, I do not drive my roommate has to take me everywhere. I have a big panic attack every time I try to drive. I am screaming inside my head, just one cut it will make it all feel better. Yes I am also a cutter, and yes cutting does make it feel better for that moment. I do not want to cut anymore I know thier are other ways. I need help I can't stand it, I can't take it anymore. All I do is cry anymore it seems.
I do not hide my scars, I am not ashamed of them. And NO I do not do it for attention.
I have thought about suicide over the past months. I am just so tired of the pain, and fear. But thats it, just thoughts. I do not have the urge I guess you would say to kill myself. It is just thoughts in my head.
I just do not know what to do anymore.
And do not post Do not kill yourself you have more to live for comments please. Because if you actually did read my blog it clearly states. That it is just thought that I do not actually want to go through with it.
I do not hide my scars, I am not ashamed of them. And NO I do not do it for attention.
I have thought about suicide over the past months. I am just so tired of the pain, and fear. But thats it, just thoughts. I do not have the urge I guess you would say to kill myself. It is just thoughts in my head.
I just do not know what to do anymore.
And do not post Do not kill yourself you have more to live for comments please. Because if you actually did read my blog it clearly states. That it is just thought that I do not actually want to go through with it.
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In the past I have made about 5 suicide attempts but luckily they weren't serious. If you ever need to chat, let me know.