So far my blogs have been pretty short, I imagine this one will be longer, although since I started thinking about what I was going to say, I have simmered down a little about what is pissing me off HA
I feel shit because I have been a bit of a whiny bitch lately, so if you don't want to read, feel free to move on.
There are some things that I haven't mentioned to any of the friends I've made on here, frankly because I didn't want to be judged.. but the more I think about it, I have not seen anyone judge anyone on here, and therefore think I am safe and am able to vent a bit...
My home life leaves a bit to be desired, as I am sure that everyone thinks, but here it is: I live with what I like to refer to as my 'Roomie'.. he is the father of my daughter, and we have been married for almost 10 years. In the last 3 years I can count on less than 1 hand how many times we've had sex. He is so un-involved with every aspect of mine and my daughters lives it's ridiculous... This is not something new, and therefore some may ask why I don't kick him to the curb. It's not that easy, the same thing all people say when they don't just leave. He is from the UK, not a citizen. Although my daughter can't stand spending time with him now there may come a day when she will want to.
She is now 7 and if I make plans and will not be home, she will do everything in her power to find somewhere else to be. For example, I went to a wedding a few weeks ago and was gone for 2 nights.. leaving her with him for 1 night and had arranged for her to spend the following day and night with a friend. He didn't want to deal with her, so he pawned her off on a lady down the street who has a 4 year old and lives in a VERY abusive relationship... HELLO!?!? What the FUCK is wrong with you?!?
Anyway.. this is why 2 years ago I chose to be a sub to my love. It had been many years since we had seen each other and immediately connected, better than when we were younger. I had never been a sub before, and He has opened my eyes to so many new and exciting things. I look forward to many more years with him
On that note, tomorrow is our day SO excited! I have been informed of some of the fun we will be having...
I feel shit because I have been a bit of a whiny bitch lately, so if you don't want to read, feel free to move on.
There are some things that I haven't mentioned to any of the friends I've made on here, frankly because I didn't want to be judged.. but the more I think about it, I have not seen anyone judge anyone on here, and therefore think I am safe and am able to vent a bit...
My home life leaves a bit to be desired, as I am sure that everyone thinks, but here it is: I live with what I like to refer to as my 'Roomie'.. he is the father of my daughter, and we have been married for almost 10 years. In the last 3 years I can count on less than 1 hand how many times we've had sex. He is so un-involved with every aspect of mine and my daughters lives it's ridiculous... This is not something new, and therefore some may ask why I don't kick him to the curb. It's not that easy, the same thing all people say when they don't just leave. He is from the UK, not a citizen. Although my daughter can't stand spending time with him now there may come a day when she will want to.
She is now 7 and if I make plans and will not be home, she will do everything in her power to find somewhere else to be. For example, I went to a wedding a few weeks ago and was gone for 2 nights.. leaving her with him for 1 night and had arranged for her to spend the following day and night with a friend. He didn't want to deal with her, so he pawned her off on a lady down the street who has a 4 year old and lives in a VERY abusive relationship... HELLO!?!? What the FUCK is wrong with you?!?
Anyway.. this is why 2 years ago I chose to be a sub to my love. It had been many years since we had seen each other and immediately connected, better than when we were younger. I had never been a sub before, and He has opened my eyes to so many new and exciting things. I look forward to many more years with him
On that note, tomorrow is our day SO excited! I have been informed of some of the fun we will be having...
Glad it's all worked out for you in the end though Hun xx