toxicvixen

my living situation has been improving ever so slightly. there's been considerably less hostility between me and the ex since a conversation we had the other night. who knows how long this will last, but at least the past few days have been peaceful and the anxiety attacks have subsided. still though, the day i move out i'm sure will be the biggest relief i've felt in awhile.

i've decided to get actively involved with my art again. painting, photography, writing... i'm talking with someone who organizes art events in the area so hopefully i'll do something with him this summer. it's a small thing that will make me happy, make me feel like "me" again... whatever that means. if you're at all interested in what i do, you should check out the link to my website, although... maybe you shouldn't. i haven't updated it in forever, and tall the material up there now is pretty old...

i'm feeling like i'm moving back time or something. i keep running into people i knew way back when who for one reason or another drifted out of my life. online, on the street, through the mail... it seems like all these people from the past are popping up again. it's scary yet terrific all at once.

nothing much else to say except that i got my invite to the Draculas Ball (a big goth/industrial event) in Philly for May 24th. i'm debating on whether or not i should go. i've been trying to avoid the whole club thing since i've come to the realization that every time i go out lately it pretty much ends up with me having a hangover the next morning.

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