Wednesday Apr 02, 2003

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I have a great boyfriend. So why do I care so much that my ex is interested in someone new. It's not like I want him back... I think it's just more of a blow to the ego that for the three years we were together, he spent all his time buried in his work. Always too busy for me. Now he not only rearranges his schedule, but mine as well to see this new girl. Not only that, but I got kicked off of a summer trip we were supposed to do in August with some other people because she "isn't comfortable" with the situtation. What the hell! She's only known him for a month. Whatever. I can not wait to move out. This whole situation sucks.

I really need to stop letting things stress me out so much. I had a panic attack today. Not fun. I need a vacation. It doesn't even have to be anywhere far, just away from here...

Maybe then my journal enteries will be less self-pitying.

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cherryb0mb:
maybe he realizes now the mistakes he made with you, and is trying to change? you do sound like you need some relaxation time. i get stressed very easily, so i know how it feels. frown take a break, do something you enjoy, something to get your mind off things.

i broke up with my ex less than a month ago- after over 3 years being together. we lived together for over 2 years, we were close- so it's hard to let go. it's just that we need to start having separate lives, and not depend on each other so much.

people mistake me for being under 18 almost constantly- so that doesn't help my problem of not being taken seriously. bleh. in our 20's, we're supposed to adults now... i suppose at any age, there will always be someone older and "wiser" who will look down on you for some reason or another.
webigailboop:
i was just talking about this with someone the other day actually. i think that you never really get completely over your exes. like there's always this connection that you have with them. you feel like part of them is always yours. and when they start seeing someone new, even if you are madly in love with someone else, there's always a little bit of a twinge of jealousy. and you always think to yourself, well i had them first. that person was yours once and it's hard to see them with someone else.

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