i am withdrawing from the site. there have been far too many omens for me to ignore, and now i feel it difficult to even remain a member.
i need to think.
as much as modeling for the site was a dream coming true for me, i've realized that maybe dreams aren't always what they seem, especially when reality show them for what they really are.
i feel horrible. strange. disconnected.
strange mostly. and irritated. confused. dissillusioned. derailed. awoken. mostly irritated, and mostly at myself.
i mean no offense to SG as a site, nor to the girls who bravely bare themselves to the public for all to see. but i can not do it.
so many reasons, so little time, so many things that have come to upset me into this position. and though i still want to model, i am after all proud of who i am and who i have come to be, i feel that modeling here is not in my cards.
i deal a rough deck.
perhaps one day i shall find myself singing different songs. for the meantime, i shall remain lurking in the shadows... as i should have been.
i need to think.
as much as modeling for the site was a dream coming true for me, i've realized that maybe dreams aren't always what they seem, especially when reality show them for what they really are.
i feel horrible. strange. disconnected.
strange mostly. and irritated. confused. dissillusioned. derailed. awoken. mostly irritated, and mostly at myself.
i mean no offense to SG as a site, nor to the girls who bravely bare themselves to the public for all to see. but i can not do it.
so many reasons, so little time, so many things that have come to upset me into this position. and though i still want to model, i am after all proud of who i am and who i have come to be, i feel that modeling here is not in my cards.
i deal a rough deck.
perhaps one day i shall find myself singing different songs. for the meantime, i shall remain lurking in the shadows... as i should have been.
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Guys think their claim to fame is being studly, with the better man having the more notches on their belt, each standing for another woman they've had sex with.
Girls, now girls are different. Girls rate themselves on how much other people like them, many times physically; about how popular they are.
This site has many things going for it, and way too many girls come here with high hopes and they get all weepy and crying for no good reason.
First, the hottest girls can get rejected by this sight, because of picture quality, or even set motifs that just don't work. Girls can be rejected for just not having what SG is looking for, etc. These could be all perfectly hot and great girls, but they're just not a fit here.
Second, just because one is rejected as SG, means little in the whole scheme of things, and should not be the one act in this year (or month, or week) that determines your mood and self-esteem and self-image. You're bigger than that....I barely know you, but I truly get a sense that you're bigger than that.
Third, once you take those pics, get accepted, and become an SG, those are no longer your pics. If you want them off the site or gone, tough luck. They're not yours anymore. You've lost control of that... I guess to me that would be an important thing, but...hey, you may be different.
So anyway, hope you don't leave. I hope you stick around in this place and give it a try. Come here for the people, the sexuality, the openness, the friends. You can still (if you have that desire) bare yourself in your pics section.