Hello Dirty Birdies,
I hope you are all well and enjoying the beginning of summer. Every year I long await for summer. Yet I always feel like it's gone before it has even started. Personally I'll be happy when June is over. The weather in Portland has been typical for June... Sunshine and rain back and fourth. Before you can break out the patio furniture the rain falls down to rain out your BBQ. Besides the rain though June has been one disaster after another. I could tell you all about my series of unfortunate events but I would rather not trouble you all with my personal problems. All I know is I'm looking for the silver lining in the thunder clouds.
Life has been so confusing and difficult lately. I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life right now and I don't know which road to take. Do I continue down the same road or do I take the detour? Only time will tell... for now I'll put in my headphones and listen to a familiar tune...
"Oh thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know"
I spent the last 7 days in bed... I thought I had been suffering from seasonal allergies (which I had never even experienced until last year). Then when the body aches came I figured it was the flu. I have always toughed out the flu so I felt it was no big. When my head hurt so bad and I could barely breathe... that's when I went to the doctor. Turned out I was one step away from being in the hospital. A serious sinus infection and also a serious ear infection (in both ears). I have never experienced either that I can remember so this has been quite the experience. The doctor prescribed me some heavy duty antibiotics which are finally working.
I had to call out from work (which I NEVER do). I take a lot of pride in my job so pretty much it's an emergency or I'm one step away from death sick (which was the case). It honestly couldn't have come at a worse time. End of the month rent is due and my insurance is so shitty I had to cover my entire doctor's visit and prescription. Spending rent money on your health...It's the American way. Again though silver lining & optimistic thoughts. Hoping I am feeling 100% very soon because I need to resume my regular activities.
On a different and more happier note I am in this month's Bizarre Magazine. A pull out poster even! The photo is by Kat Attack Photography for her Lucha Diabolica project. Which I'm honored to be apart of! Make sure to get a copy of the magazine!
I'm going to return to resting and attempting to feel like myself again. Be well loves xoxo, Toxy
